yestermorn merely cleaning the desktop - a few last lingering images cluttering the simplest space, in fact
Did she mean her sincere sunlight filled eyes wide open?
Waste of time.... as i was reminded of something
This old image of 'Mammon'
Is alive and well everywhere... it is astonishing to me in fact, having actually for real lived mainly as Thoreau in his walden woods for 33 years, really - though i had 'households' in mid 20s like the herd becoming 'homely' but as Iraq 1 began i said simply " no more"
And ever since then ALL 'home'ly possessions and have always been on standby: only ever having temporary location - a child's clothes in a chest of drawers one knows they are only the right size a year or two so all are temporary items in your life i never even made and one space labelled: " this is where MY clothes live, now, always...in MY home..." because i didn't really believe in 'home'.
But why....
Because of the one deepest down herd mentality - it is all very well to say or think or GW1 BE in a state of the neurotic need for oil to make goods everyone is addicted to...
And the "bird" of anywhere but the highlands should merely be magpie
Loads of magpie pictures over a year to playfully put here ... but it isn't play. A whole nation of mainly magpies ... trinkets to big tellies 35 years ago seen through: all take oil to create and ultimately the people of the Middle East no matter which book they pontificate is the best, are lost to the fundamental ungrounding material under their ground... and all the causes and effects.
But how can the 'West' look at itself in the mirror and not really care about anything much except performing 'care' such as a Farage may about his teapot ending up with a different symbol on it - one of some other theosophy?
The one simple elephant in the room that so boringly all ones adult life one has listened to the britolish and other peaoples not debate, merely pontificate upon " two glsses of wine a day keeps Michael Modely on the straight and narrow pathway to..mindbody paradise... "
SIMPLE: those of us who do not ever 'habitually' drink the grape or hop - 3% perhaps. Maybe more, maybe more like 10% though 9% of that 10% are coy about it - hide it....
If you go though life - the last 15 years maybe 50 units of alcohol in total, and almost half of them were on one specific night - a ritual right of 'passage' passing through a dusty S American town, in my case...
The second decade+ long period of almost total abstinence in 35 years; only interspaced with a half a decade from 2003ish of once a week 'social' soporific pint and a half of ale....exploring for A N Other's sake the social space in the land that means pub meal and pint....
But no one to 'socialise' from 2010 give up that silly habit, as deep down you know it is...
And also keeping at bay the refined sugar much of the time
Although not being warped by the grape and sugar it means all you have is the unmollested truth and it hurts when you know that the masses are grape mollested in tgheir minds - it does, but they socially get used to it... become conditioned...
So in short you know there is them - the masses....and you, in the few percent who don't. And you know because the alcohol free mind is a purer mind of honest thought, are the one who cannot be in the 'social' masses because ... they are so boring.... and do sometimes lose it under the influence of their grape
But it is so so so much more than that mere few drinks a day, habitually, it simply changes the whole mind body and
philosophy - working philosophy which for child-women means in fact 'morality':
how one feels about the behaviour of the self AND state around oneself...
Now, i aint in essaying state of mind.... because all "human" animals are to some extent social beasts...
But i know only one simplest thing in life that especially this awful time of the year comes into even moreplay...
(they dont know how to as alcohol actually fucks those circuits too)
Perhaps it is or has to be over decades - if one is someone whom for decades - more than three, has become a not 'habitual' drinker... never 'identifies' anything ever that is good coming from drink...knowing for a fact in fact it cannot. Even if the social construct of ones people is almost the opposite.
It doesn't matter if one is temperate 'recovered' ex 'crutchist' - I think people are conned by this " i have a bottle shaped hole in my heart" as i was a bit until 26ish...
...so i can never have just one civilised drink again in my life another con
But it is all very very simple: and it is where Mr Curtiss and his whole herd of sheep sadly have you all by the balls... where there is nothing left of any substance:
In fact go back to Elliot G and Hardy T.... the characters within their magnificent i-think-real 'history' of who we were by even
mid century
the one before last.
Those whom drank a fair bit, were a little non functional a fair bit of the time...
But more than anything, most of the time a little selfish
Far From The Madding Crowd and reliable Gabriel a never grape pickled young Oak of a man
perhaps the very best riff upon that
The Oak just plants his feet in the ground and endures most storms most frosts and rather likes a long sunny period.
Ask me THE one thing that makes people ONLY self obsessed - i saw it with a father many years... is quite a lot or even just 'social' drinking Mosleyan 2 glasses a day...
it warps the mind
i was thinking thisterdawn even their bible is a little boozy - i bet the writers of it, were more boozy than the average peasant farmer or ordinary parent or even merchant
If one really is a no-alcohol THEMIX - mind body....
One is just different - really quite so...
Mister Curtiss and his " the Kettering women sipping wine, no longer think of the COMMON GOOD...." even if he is too thick to simplify it: maybe it's the wine...Not Thatcher Mandelson and co...
Maybe just the wine...
But i KNOW - there isn't much i know for a real fact ... but i know even the 10 unit a month person is DIFFERENT from the 2 units a year person...alcohol really does have some strange grip even the 'abstinent' person who sees themselves as 'recovered' from loadsa units to keep you goin'...
Is different.
Until maybe baptisms of fireballs aimed at your arse for years... you realise nope you don't even 'need' a drink after a few of the worst kinds of horrible mental torture... some mad pig getting revenge or whatever
You like and trust the ordinary - non grape reset, mental circuits to deal with it all in time. You are amazed and even 'esteemed' - "wow i was subject to the worst horrors yet it never even occurred to me i had EARNED a drink to relax and ..[even 'forget'].." How great is that! I trust MYself forever now....
But you do also realise that the 97% would not even understand that best thing of the actual 'self' there is - to know one could NEVER have any kind of need for a drink ever....and that having a few a week turns you self obsessed..
ALL is in reference only to the 'self'... rather than common good medium term of all people of ones 'community'...
But by definition the Grapeite doesnt REALLY care about the common good as the grape elevates only THEMselves to the only one who really matters...or who knows anything...
Who are the dominant in fact only 'tribe' in Britolin ... i couldnt even mate with one ... i have different DNA...
Its very.... well boring realising maybe even she lied " i don't drink..either..." the Grapeites don't value truth, only THEIR truth - spun out as a game as they are still children...
i accept 100% the times i have seen it up close...
So i guess one cannot be 'lonely - the real killer.... if one knows that in fact the few of us who don't drink ( hardly ever... any more - thats true joy to know also what its like to be a drinker til age 26 - never able to understand the words 'common good'...means ALWAYS... always...no exception.... the non drinker has THAT in their mental DNA...)
We are so few - i never really find one... i guess....
All i wanted, since realising it didnt have my balls in its vice-like grip.... and also that almost always not having a drink makes one different. and makes one like ones unfogged mind - even a couple a week has such an interesting minor rumpus affect on it... why would any sane being want to fog their mind such that they can only see them..
selves
But then in foggy conditions most or reality is unavailable .... (and people like Eckheart tell stories, that are just stories ... to fill the void all around with ....themselves...)
