but metoo
fuck me i didn't even know how to look into stats.. and i had misslooked and thought it was 2 downloads a month if that
("sorry i never look at a phone when speaking with a human its the height of bad manners and if someone does it their therapy has clearly failed... but i have to show you this" i needed to fully say
but theres never enough time in the day
* sorry the joke is on you for never going to https://www.ralphschism.com/p/funding.html and even paying a paypal penny despite me being maybe the only substacker (i guess i can sort of call myself that now...?? ) who never charges for any content and never even says " like and subscribe" - i know no one has even striped - whatever that is they say the new paypal for grownups.... i know as no one ever has...
... you have to start at the beginning likely 50 interminable hours of rambling badly produced waffle...
AND Segway into videos...another 500 hrs work there
and read my notes not even finished yet
and see the thus far censored photo and video section
and then the private pages that only a few hand picked facially faced off peeps get...
And mix in a few texts...
And one amazing impossible private page
and
one day all will be revealed....
until then the 'story' is only 2/3 revealed...
But then - bleak...wasting so much time with the full private viewing....
one..(not of my gang) . she did what i told her - Mrs Pink Doc Martins..
" i don't do what i am told"
"that's a strange thing to say .....you showing me the list of books coming in for you the exact ones i TOLD you to read hahh hahh.. now remember what i said about Reader on the 6.27...if you don't cry at the end..you wouldn't be worth knowin'... "
so i told her the 'story' just now...
i don't believe in one-way anything nor does The Nutzn - i think my final nickname for the one who's Jordan was a child, lets grow up and remain human despite him, and the rest of them, Russell; and someone take Eckhart out and drown him in the ohh well to put himself out of his misery ... book you WILL read one day
right...gee-herd time
because i have a crusade ... i know one personwoman who if i had a friend or beloved needed a shrink.... there's only one i would conceivably trust...
And she needs to...write her book.
And we kindof already...are.