Now, mindfulness ACTUALLY is (not their 10,000 hours practice - i even wasted one hour recently listening to the paid god and goddess of it... phd in brain spasticity - and i have met TAllis and read his book intro....which says much is made up)
... KNOWING for sure, as it always has been the case, all the last 15 years, longer really... August - the month of the 'grockle' tourism if one lives aside (in the hills many years, by choice)
Actually this is scary - how truly terrible google is.. rewriting history
grockel for 50 years, whether 'mildly derogatory' or not was a lingua franca nationally recognised word for gauche, vulgar consumerist, chip-fat smelling, usually chubby selfish loud people wandering around very touristy places on their holidays...
blessem..its a free country...
whom would avoid Hay-on-Wye for instance, most of the rest of the time, except the last couple of weeks in August...
And living many years 10km from such a place one learned to KNOW august was awful... NOTHING ever happened in August..
And ideally one would be elsewhere when running my lass around in our old van, ONLY for her education and pleasure and freeness...
I know... from decades ... august is exhaustingly bleak...
And then out of the blue, one day - the second... of lastermonth...paradise happens... and keeps repeating... so energising, so truly wholesomely ... impossible.
And still is.
And it has only stabbed me in the eye, reminding me never to believe in my own cast iron cauldronic, predictions...
As i was wrong.
And being wrong is a GREAT real "human" thing to take ones inner thoughts and even bad poetical work...to a new level.
You cannot get from a book, workshop or 350 quid gathering of bullshit festivalgoing in the Devonian back gardens ( " near Dartmoor" )
Only failure and fabulous stabbing in the eye from pratts...even if i know ALWAYS 'walk away'... and never stand your ground in the first place as no one is worth arguing with in this awful sceptic aisle...
Actually develops further ones "all seeing eye" and stabproof vest..
Which has been FULL STEAM AHEAD... this last 30 odd days... lots to put here.
And the 'other place'... when the rains come back as nice weather is for being out in it.
But seriously - i always am. When i meet a wonderful giraffe - a true graceful beats of one...and .. diligently she has raised three children to adulthood....
And she cannot sleep...and is brainwashed that 'mindfulness' is the only way to peace...
Well i would love to take her on an undercover tour of mindfulness peacecamps at 350 quid a weekend - which is a 'figure of speech' - meaning for a decade i have known the participants and CAMP KOMMANDANTS...
It never ever works.. it is a fraud.. they end up more lined, unhappy and acid tongued fruitloop...
I looked after their land.. i picked up their discarded metal tools strewn in their long grass when they preach ' light footprint' on the earth..
All..is a sham... focusing on ones OWN inner peace is a fraud. Exact opposite of the truth... and it all came from cunts like Kurt... the one i knew 20 years ago... well we all 'knew' by site but few knew.. what happened indoors...
Who would parade on grant funded rescue deals.. the young men he would lure from Duddhistan...to the Banks of The Wye, by HAy...from Eastern lands...as their 'guru'...
To be cont
Obviously an extreme case, however it is the total failure of The West especially using (always false - Buddhist in Budlight land send boys to be buggered by the Kurt...sss... and of course their inner next level zen will make them immune from that little sphinctal 'trauma' too..
But it is the ten thousand hours of 'practice'... stops them ever even noticing a child abuser parading around in their midst quite obviously showing off his latest prey...
Only being 'real' leads to actual 'mindfulness' .. a better version...
But that word should be torn out like a missfiring heart and chopped up into little bits so as not to pollute what True cheery stoicism..always was...
And i knew, the moment she said it... i muust save her (even if notionally) ...from deadbrain disease ... some, as in her...seem above being physically hurt by their awful pestilence of false metaphysical bullshit (except of course they corrupt their own souls)... some though are innocent lambs..even if in Ibex clothing...
And i will not have this any more so all this fey dangerous falsity must be nuked off her awful perch...
So so dull (for me) but i do over 20 years have the bible, on it...
which i cannot go back and look over, listen again... unless i can think of it ONLY as comedic... (and maybe to help one 'real' person i have met)
which
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