Now...
2003- about 7.. then a few years 2010-13... then 16 on...
I lived that Kushner principal....
Te actual only 'mindfulness' there is...
But as remedy also to what is the greatest waste of time ever.... even us - 13-15 sidekick who was in charge, and I.. volunteering - being grown ups... " celia dear mayoress.... [ best of a dreadful load of frauds]... you stand for election - we must put SOMEONE up for county for gods sake.........i know like all the fakes that flock in from Wolverhampton... the posher suburbs...your second line in every conversation is 'i havent got time' though not as pitch perfect piercingly as those in from primrose Hill....... we will be your real support and electional agenteering...we pledge to clean your bogs, kitchen floor and weeds from the garden even if they should be ;left too if yer actually a GREEN....one year 10 hours a week minimum slavery... so you DO have time to do what you say you were going to be..and why we ferkin supported you in the first place.."
All irrelevant except that one alone maybe 50 hours wasted on over a few months of 2015... (not including the then many many hours supporting the gradual mental collapse of the one i had to look after as she stepped forward to fill the unfilled seat.. they then vampirically sucked the blood of...as she was MUCH younger than these old hasbeen sourbags..)
Years of .. techniques developed to keep all and every single moment alive..
Not deliberate but some just organically come along and work..
Such as the lawyer man... set up.. cowboy hats and fancy cars...
taking pity he would say on the most underprivelaged place of his pestilent county...
Me offerin' to help a bit - by training the sidekick as his free volunteer office assistant no one ever there tpo answer office enquiries despite a fabulously positioned office with ACLU type advertorials in his windows....... so arrogant in that bought boho...
And lots of time in the bought boho cafe up the road.. smilingly spreading his smiley smugness
And ..maybe after a year of part-time wasting our precious time.. never actually DOing any ACLU in the one place it was most needed by far
poor little Kington..
Off he goes into the sunset never to be seen again... except by me back in his horrid litte county seat..
often left open on my tabs for months to remind me.. as he looks exactly like the drummer..
Shame only one of them was the 'artist' they all attempt to ally themselves with in image and smarm..
None of which, there, could ever Jorja... let-go...
All the way and merely wish when no ones looking
back in Horrrorford
to be seen as the next Brian... that look gettin' the city chicks...
All i know is the key to being Brian may rather be having universes of such bubbling hippo stew in my head for years i forget some - so so so much wasted time... the last two carefully textured reminder jabs to stated on-siders lasteraft, no more now....but every aide memoire has been so long put in place so as to retain the PICTORIAL flow of event into event into a cesspool of most of them aiming merely to be their own little tightly spiralled little whirlpool in their solo radio 4 appearances over the years.. virtue signalling the may have noticed some issue when they ignored years earlier sane reasonable approaches to dDO something about it all.... ..i dont really need the many thousand pics...
only in that someone may not actually believe it all...
And lawsuits waste time.. even if i always win em... if they matter.
My daughter's river matters.. and its REAL history. And the best two "birder" ever as it's also the best symbolic BBC covered utter cataclysm that simply returns us straight back to the times of the Pharisees and Sadducees
Except in their day i guess they were too far from muddied waters to put the figurative ducking stool to good use.
Among other things. All of which live clear as a vinegar cleaned high window... blocking the natural sunlight which needs to be set free...
soon.
some of which it may be easier to leave the country, first... to weave into something fun. Those "we"men.. my my they dont like '"we saw through you a fair while ago.."
And The farmer Sugarmum.. she agreed too...
I have rather a lot - rather more important than exploitation of the toffs'...wallets... on..him...
I dont believe even a to-be-pitied rich 'beautiful people' person... should have one penny of their money ripped offtoo...