But ok....

 it is because they were vannish...ish.. they did have rather a bourgeois filled up van i looked inside...

At her promontory ..of the her of the  " i was not traumatised.."  when everyone else would be trying to have him castrated 50 years on for PT ess dee traumocrimes...  over the line, but... 

Why have i seen her twice?..i never meet ANYone again.... it is as if on the Odyssey to absolutely nowhere ever very far... that was the 'rule' ..

The Stella one, called Stella... Jesus how i have kept a lonely vigil on the horizon for her fabulous hooknose, i so wished hours and hours more of: and all of her  from her " i am 66% Jewish .." and then telling Moldovan truths about all the actual real history no filter..so the truth ...die Wahrheit ...sounds much more perfect in Frog or as i used to call it to the one whom hanged my life turning me on to Thomas... 'Grenish..'. 

 . simply the best ever communicator i have ever met... was that thisterApril ish... too much happens when i want NOTHING ever to happen...  my life became only about one thing 18 months ago

oops wrong clip... though at a secondary level the right one, possibly...

In fact in a month - the worst ALWAYS my second sight always knew for sure .. August.. the month of, nothing, ever..just fat moronic nada .. 

. far far too much has happened starting  der dritte Tag ...well in fact it started the 2nd..or 1st really..

with an impossible, saudade-man..

with a  clipboard

and authority..

But back to the sadly no longer so slim vanwoman-couple... was that maybe middle of July? around then..

" i was a .. 

 ..even if i may not be quite so tiny any more.... i was in my 20s  skinny and in fact a near famous balletbabe...  but all that 'DRIVEN' trying .... never mind UNNATURAL use of my joints.. [ i cry and try to speak with every joggah...and extremeite...] ...look at my scars ... all down my chubby ones...  new knees needed... years of agony i have had...and its hips soon... " 

vannism makes SOME tell ..truth.... and laugh at themselves ... but for gods sake never talk with anyone witha  'VAns' label

Up there at the best ever atch in history...

she told it - reality... 

OOPS.. i ...well.... always having known that was a perfect song...  at a certain other 'level' it now has added meaning .. i never tell others actual truths, but the .. talk about ultimate "existential challenge" of the .... 

Vater

doesnt want to be called Vater any more....

Anyway none of my business, even if i know the answer to that sleep business...

Ahhh...right on time (her soon... 

.... i mean... her stupendously good art....

even if she lives by the worst of all death-to-art "communities"..Totness  - same as Hay-on-Wye then the other Marches towns to my shock 15 years ago)

SO yes where was I .. THE Women's Aider...  (i told her, bravely, at the weekend, laster.... the " i wasn't traumatised" story.. that shut her up... though i could see her mind ticking over attempting to insult me further with assumptions...) at least she asked one interesting question..i forget what it was she .. [ one of those variable pronouns types even if fat and 55 really is just fat and 55 ]...  ohh yes yestermorn just where i met the troupe.. the ultra worthy artiste troupe in the mud...  " ehh i am not into hard porn... if thats what this is aside a public pathway.."  two, slim women.. English !!! .. 60plus though one must never say so... one in training, slightly, for her upcoming half marathon she told me proudly..i suggested she train on GRASS!!! where humans were evolved to run...and live to be 3 score and ten.. dont believe anyone - most of medical science and all historians afflicted with hiysteriography or whatever her word was...Lewontin in Doctrine of DNA clearly nuked that narcissistic trope... 

'medical science' has NOT prolongued human life expectancy much.

apart from the major advance of clean your fingers before stickin' en up the pleasure junction, 96.5% of us apparently still find the only junction of interest according to the last census... BBC never read of course as it doesnt suit their bizarre agenda... 

to tease out a reluctant nipper...

(It was a doodle of Ignaz Semmelweis, a 19th-century Hungarian doctor who was known as the pioneer of hand-washing. He discovered the wonders of the now-basic hygienic practice as a way to stop the spread of infection in 1847, during an experiment in a Vienna hospital's maternity ward)

 

if one makes it past about 15... wars, scrofulous whores who forget to clean their hands between customers... (a noblest profession done more good to REAL 'humanity' than any other ive known..), childhood illness... 

you kind of often got to 70 or 80 in the times of Georgie or even 20ish  years before 

Le Rouge et le Noir 

As any look at a graveyard will PROVE ... so modern medicine has made very little REAL diference Lewontin an actual professor of medical matters at Harvard..had to resign his seat temporarily (i think that story is true) to write his almost perfect 

Nestbeschmutzer

book, 

Doctrine of DNA... 

definition: if you LIKE your home"bird" nest... but it is infested with maggots preaching smelly 'mindfulness' or the like which other maggots just love for breakfast..AND IN FACT MAGGOTS ARE FINE ALIVE CREATURES SO THIS IS A BAD METAPHOR....piss on it (as Bernhard did with his perfect writing - Berllatoo... Rachel K.. goddess of) to change the smell to one more real and natural...

 

where Lewontin stuck a finger up at the trope medicine - better put obsession and vanity of we will fix all ailments...  is good for us... because it hasnt (then, early 90s) done much to help that many, yet.. live longer... 

unlike the myth that abounds

Anyway where was i (other than being naughty and not getting to the long audio of fill in bits and other such sequiturs yesterlunchtime that may need a bleep... because i make no sense unless all the not-yet loaded bits from the last 3 months are loaded...and the summer is for LIVING.. walking... being in the summer.... so it will have to wait.) 

I know GREAT ... stories, thebest....

of only saudade...

But maybe 3 years ago i figured it...not that i wished to.... nor needed

How did Gabriel do it..?

Market research, writerly role play... as a theatrical may do - what do they call it oh yes method acting... on fuckin' every babe in town, and the next one....  when he still loves only her....

Or how to remain 'faithful' when one  is weirdly 'committed'.... as "commitment" is all there is...

it trumps all

Anyway i have a range of vidowaffle about why i hate boats...

"now" is

the kairos