"I'm a cynical hard nosed grown up.... with NO 'vulnerability' you can grow up out of that cage they ALL want to encage everyone in forever.... but i can weave into my greatest ever art ever.... some of that other.... because i trust.....and thus will 'expose' all my even greater genius at the end...
"My genius will be not understood, but merely, lived.... both of those entirely opposite modern hardnesses and softnesses...just throw them out into a piece of art its impossible to understand as i dont want to tell ANYone how to be.... just be what i was born into, all the way.."
Not that that particular saudade can ever be found again.... ever...its impossible....
As i have in my meanderlopin, sadly the proof that no one of this Sceptic Aisle.... ever listens...ever... behind the worthyiest of smiles....
all that matters my too many years of too many proofs are treble backed up... as the quay to being happy and always energised is always facing up to stark realities and simply smiling at them... and maybe one day making them into - weaving...
peterjachapman.com almost a yearagolast ... as we discussed "your actually great paintings all a bit Picasso on viagra, hmmm... the hard thing is, imagery - especially photographic.... i think does need a paragraph or so to describe how even more interesting the story is behind the prima facieness...ive been pondering ten years how to do that with my 10000 photos of the truth of waste, and nature and how no one really does much and many do a lot to fuck it up... whilst portending otherwise."
"thats what i do ! i write a few lines of poetry to go with and attempt to develop each of my bonkers pictorial pieces.."
Righty ho...NOW my desktop once again will be cleared of every last piece of any past.... last duty done. A pure ascetic no apps or files on the stark ascetic plain background..(PIC!) Only forward march, now... as i know no one from the past even several happy groomates... will never ever do what they say they wish to do....
song verses pinned to butterfly wings sent off into the wind to make them look good - by which i mean many 'good' real conversations about the state of the dustbin thats society... merely joined in with to make the conversant look good... none even dare write their many year frustrations inside child 'care' organisations (part privatised) that absolutely fail to do any real care and anyway we all know thats not fiscally viable even if Starmerstan will never admit that one.... because all their mates are in that very gravy train - made inedible by the amount of dead bluehair dropped into it for years...., to the buffers ....