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Thing is, living mainly in very rural aside places, 30 years ago getting my bed away from their cities and 27 years ago not even going to them for work any more.... And thus only from years of a lot of DEPENDING on my body for manual and other worl...
si so so much a life of movement.... plus way aside in the hills, much solitude ..( when not child raising) . ypu really do get to know your body.... one has the time ans 'soace' to be aware if every ( pptentially disabling) twinge or abnormal gut movement ( i only poo at 5 past wakeuptime every single day of the last 27 years) ... i know my body perfectly....
not that i care but every pimple, svrath, or sometimes ache....
Thing is.... I know it is all UNknowable....
The magical elements, must be really quite psychosicial.... but dont ever believe anyonw who lays out what " change" you need, on any menu.....
All of mine ( except splurging as of a year agoish, all ' shame' or pain, re one beloved lost kid) ... all my ' changes' are in fact to all others, and society and even law, 'negative' .... by any common person ( in this bourgeois construct) would know 100% for sure.... negative ' bad'...
... ups and downs grom 2010.... into bewpase after a few years of peace, even if brexit broke my heart.... evil witch Rachman landlord 2019ish , blesser.... and on....
( i won, photos soon... they are FUN.... my my how she hated it i beat her ' system'...but that gave me no pkeadure-zen...)
my body is in far better nick then even... 10 uears ago....
i cannot understand....
( so i shall assume the cunty angels arent on side.... .. nor anynother mumbo jumbo peabrai metaphysical entity... so i guess its merely due to gradual slow ..
' happiness' kindof achieved... so if i rite that one proper i shall be richer than the Musk rat.... cos its all ANY one ever seems to talk avout...and notes me beyong belief!!! . they hate me for never doing....never joining in that modern currency talk... ... my nowadays Ancient Marriner's smelly neckwear Albatross, some years: i never even frown at bits of bodily goin' wrong.... as i believe its not our business ..... )