before i return to pen and paper attempting to wordify
' 'appiness' ... which may take weeks ...
As all machines just interfere.
Two words i know are THE ...' problem'
1. Festival. from the later 70s in my case.. great to gather and enjoy or be changed a bit by some good musac or art...... or dancing together...but its just...just...a gig!!.
I am quite sure this one changed the lifeplans... ideas...desires... of a fair few folk under their military choppers
fine...
but what happened, ehhh... Gladyonbury 71 ... £2 a ticket i bet...or not far off...
music, bring your own beer... and someone would be bbqing veggieburgers at a slight premium.... in fact not really.... same price for veggieburger as in a cafe in Sheppherds bush....
often nicer...v tasty...with a bit of love in them... or just a smallest bit of " community" ... i jest... hardly... as its a 5 minute expetience quickly firgotten
as a one off...
ff 20 or so years... the costs of all the infrastructure, regulations, AND his SUV he must have for the burger truck... and ... and... the pitch fees quadrupled in ' real' terms... etc etc... the veggieburger is doubled or trebbled in real terms compared to a late night cafe in shep bush... or domewhere ungentrified....
and he... the modern chilman Profit and his 3 grand youtube camera... he needs to be there to ..pimp his cameraperfect pout....
is all just ( as she decried regarding her entertainment industry " i no longer accept or wish to Bee in any institution" ).. all of these things ... festivals especially, are merely 'institutions'... or theme parks with a fairly steep entry price amd running cost
and i am with..her... i saw rhrough their self righteous con decades ago...
( and they ALWAYS leave beghind tons if litter... even with a perfect litter pickin regime... tons of towny litter gets carried off into the wind...eg chinese lanterns, ... shaman gatgerations are if course above anti litter damage regulation!... balloons etc i would find loads even in the hills if Herrock, 50 km from any gatheration of litteting
" human" ...
festivals are neither natural state, nor in any way where one can ever find real wisdom.... been there looked... especially as the operating costs if even a wandering festival philosopher became far higher
just another hamster wheel! every single attendee would even deny reality
Hay Frstival of bad literature and no art
I knew well the " recycling guru" Bob... 2008 ish...through 10 or 12..
He looked and spoke just like one if these Newmen on their Profit gig ... ( easier work than being a ckeaning lady)
to a tea... same waffle latterday ' spirituality' ... rxempted him from starving to death a long slow death tge ferret we gave my daughters pal him the looker after it in the woodland camp at Hollybish : " bob... we have dozens..if they escape they cannot forage or hunt in nature not having been taught as nippers... a long slow death...please make dure Emily[ age 12]'s ferret is caged well... or the one i gave you is double checked locked.."
3 or 4 weeks later
" its beautiful animal soul guides it through the woods ... when it soulglides out if uts cage sometimes"
" you mean you didnt double check it was locked, or ignored a REAL countryman who ubderstands animals and fucking killed Emilys first pet ...a long slow death...with your fuckin crap"
i shoukd gave said
but didnt
i do have him recorded admitting most of Hay Festivals recycled waste ( so so " we are saving the planet" huge signs vurtue signalling re waste recycling... was... landfilled burmed or dumped...
which made even his pathetic immoral animal slowdeath killing soul..sad. .
but of course ( age 55ish... a grown up in theory) ..
he never DID anything about it.... or even called them out
....and i cannot emphasise enough this so called man, in fact i had to tollerate as friend..i introduced as ( romantic) partner to my daughter's main friendgroup ... mother of those kids... she needed a bloke being recentish arrival... via Gladtonbury they stole her last yogamat from her ( her excuse for being so lazy)
every single word he uttered for years was exactly thise ..by tone and content... and manic jesus stare...
of Mr Eisenstein...
same haircut, sane bumfluff beard...same everything
they really really are everywhere these Eisenstein types....
And i know as i have tended ( pure nature harmony methods) their land... .. their sheds ...
not obe gives an actual fuck about waste, reusing tools... etc... they dont gave ut in them.. their cityman training us not ...ofnature and LIVING in nature...
i pity them... the worst tjing in any ' spirituality' is being fake
not asking to learn...and LISTEN... from those of us decades here...alone...
they got all the magpies of course ( some call females .) .... just as suck as them... their zoom bling catches their eye ...
i knew a few who were different...but i guess thats the past now, forever.. they lost their humanity, too
but one thing i will not allow, is history to be rewritten...