If a Serb pops her noze in here...
That SU, as always, is only for you, meaning....at the timespan
of a lifetime,
when one... maybe... realises playing at predictable dull little coquette
is so boring....
and has a limited lifespan
the words, the actual real power of simple words, if a true poetical soul such as you is behind them...
may find fulfillment in them for real one day
coquetting one hopes wobt last
its for children
and in old women causes great unhappiness
so thw words (have been so warped by awful fake
" i got a degree in some words so i am the goddess of them"
cultural commentariat such as Barton
who i am quite sure has not LIVED as you ...have
real life
unashamedly ... confused)
anyway i forget everyone i have ever met in a life of Bartionised
babies
but ... i riffed at hundreds of page lengths over the years on that AWFUL little word, zen.... i wish there was a better
i tried to invent one ( maybe in sublime2020.com or maybe earlier i think)
ALL British sucking up to eastern words is fake
they were stolen by
drug fuelled
sad
public school boys...
it can be traced back 200 years...
they stole nothing in fact, merely invented padtiche words in their nobrain state. .
even last week i saw in a shop window, of these absurd kiddult coastal towns, prominently... a shit standard cheap oak coffee table prominently advertised as
'Chinese Opium Table' at £275
sold a few days later
likely to some Gweek creep who will hold out until he has one of the awful fake hippy tarts ( i have an as yet unpublished poem about a couple i would see... hippy chic...but my my they notice the 75 grand porsches...i would notice their stare.) .. get a few beers in em ....via said table.... then spring " hey its an original opium table dont you know.. "
i call that coercion.. to further get the juices looser ... based on fakery)
i neglected to chronicle,
unusual for me...
fucked up english private boarding school boys went for cheap drugs in the East ... and then justified their junk time by importing fake versions of ' eastern' mumbo jumbo...
i am quite sure 150 year old Serbs had far better real tjings to do than pretend to be enlightened as they had to run away from not having a mummy, rather a nanny... and were ensnared by every fake ' Eastern' opium vendor who knew a fop haired twat when he saw them coming...from a km away...
Zen and The Art of Motorcycle Maintenance is a dull apalling non book with no ' zen' in it just fat old blokes and machines they fret when theyre not able to make loadsa child noise zooming across suburbs of america cos they dont have the right spanner to fix breakages ...as they were not organised
i.e. children
never use that word, zen, you like...
its cheap and rubbish
and actual 'zen' in complex
and must be earned
the 'zen of a berlingo' is 7 years sometimes fretting, for real, as earlier today
" fuck.... never seen that before...the water warning light staying on during engine running to charge battery...now at last it really is gonna fuck my plans...and cause enforced actual change...oh well i hate driving anyway.. bicycle and foot time... enforced."
the 7 years EARNED ..' zen':
every few months a new warning light screams out... i had 2 years of the red emergency no brakes warning light prior a year ago
no electrics ever work
no warning lights ever tell the truth ... randomly come on for phases...mysteriously disappear weeks or months later
7 years of Berlingo earned hairloss zen...i used to always fret .. no more..
proves
No one understands standard berlingo electrics which never ever work...anyway
and zen is, next time the engine is started, now:
....no change...no movement of vehicle..
no ( critical) warning .
smile
accept nothing works....and just smile
but its a shit word... i must ban myself using, i only changed into using it, for you... English so so hard ....
so i do care when i encounter even more confusing material such as that awful Barton woman....
they wone though! i accept
england is nit the place to publush good simple REAL material like you write...wrote....