she eroneously said her perfect nomoaning written bloodspattered Tightrope scenes
" just a piece of art"
wrong... Be cause good lifeafirming writing is never ' just' anything... it is all there ever was.
The spastic
' God',
is not a Miss Translation or alternate of the same word, 'word'
worded by some sick skyfairie on crack, cos she fell off her tightope and hurt her bum so needed some for the 'trauma' , mere accident...
... it was perhaps a symbolic fight among scholars of yore... politically battling
the meaning in the translation
... fighting for the ( their) right word
the goodies lost
So Be it
... mine, well not only do i not really acknowledge the word 'art' ...
if i have any to show, though it is far more, simply, in stories
And the art of persisting
with the word..no matter what
( this hasnt even started...yet... as i need to find my rather good poem, of the Hedgehog-skin-for-a- taxidermist, years.. that just 'manifested' itself quite independently
of me one dawn
The Ring
Better than Wagner's self
harming
cycle
( rich art collectors, i knew many, are addicted to being stabbed in their own eye, they lick up every drop of their lwn blood,the best art may cause them to spill...if only the safe art crowd would understand!!)
audio to insert here yestereve Suzi chat
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my poem then so actually good it was officially used on a witness stand as killme ammo... by leading 'journalist', case against .. my my my the 'hate'.. cos it proved i wasny dead....
her bullet missed my head
...as did their dock besmirchment even that dodgy judge knew an accusation too far...
( a poem, quite long, about the Egyptian goon, state forced executioner - or his own mum, and sister, and dad...would Be..next!! ordered to despatch a 16 year old young woman Tariah sq protestor... with his pistol to her head...and as the bullet exited the ring of that little barrel, he knew he could never ever ever ever in his life ...encounter a woman worthy....of the other kind of ring he wished may Be between her...at that moment....and he..
its in fact proof there are right wonky but reak sky fairies who can Be genius poets if they deign ..
as i didnt write it, i could never do that kind of superlative magical ...shivers up yer bum.... creativity... ....even if i claimed it in a dock, 2010ish as mine, faced with hostile fat ignorant ...counter... attack)
Mine... real art... has 3 dimensions
Incomplete without the other two.
And the perfect little
still-in-plastic ( to con someome else, i bought it for her as a present.. but if she read her birthday email, she i hope will smile at my 3 dimensional
dont ferk with me
to' wit. .)
book
proved to me what i had long pondered but never encountered
and need to copy
even if my idea 10 years ago
She is true Queen of it in that book.
Yes good imagery ( hers top class) , is all very well - i have 10+ years, saved.. poignant imagery.. one copy i lug around in my bloody packpack all day..
But ... the 2nd or 3d dimensions ... change everything
( as do her pepfect concise pages between pics)
if one 5 or 6 perfect paragraph accompanies each
As she alone seems to Be able to do.
Thats to me IT.. 'art' ? but it works...
Be cause... this...
no not caused by anyone new, indeed i always knew
( in my heart)
She, QueenMerm, autumn '22
me fixing, bringing peace to her goin' bankrupt kitchen table... unangstify it...for her boy. would cost me far far more than time... i never pay for even a postcard never mind December 22 " please put me down as the buyer for his picture; 20 quid for the print a bargain for something only powerful, stops me dead... real art..yes i will pop back, pay and collect in the new year, when the exhibition closed"
From December, Queenmerm with 8000 quid of cruelly factory farmed sausages upstairs.. their stressed out mum's undertable, dogshit got even on my shoe... thrice she ... hmmm... what is a more poetical word than 'pants on fired'? " i will pay you back your expenses - bus to library [ for only her work] expensive comic in the COOP [for her lovely lad] .. money subbbed only for a week! as you know from doin my accounts 800 quid tax creds comes in every month... giveme just a few more days... and as you my ONLY hope; and liability - 50 foodshop quid you lent ... you are ONLY priority. "
ff mid jan '23, i dont even have the heart to explain, "sorry dont even have a fiver for bus to come back again... someone i knew i could trust, three times in 2 months promised, so Mermaidly...to my audiofilestore"
I guess this one astonishing piece of art is still in storage ...labelled: ...
!! awaiting collection and unpaidcash...some smarmy people pleasing con man we didnt charge up front.... for the nasty conman cunt's cheap skate unpicked up piece of...art. he ruined it for everyone else never put on a sold label without money to buy it
actually visible on the Ludlow Arts Centre
table
Tis a short story goes with each
transforms ALL my imagery
and the only reason i took any image
10000+ , in the first place ( last place upto autumn '22, this one is of no intetest whatsoever... beyond that sad little shitfilled creek... i will never go back to...i lnow what authenticity is, and what lack of it causes... and how to " change"... but not one has the backbone, even her...)
