Wednesday 17 January 2024

 meanwhile, i have utterly no idea why i get subscribers to my youtube which is...


not in any way promoted or ever worked on


( well if it went to 600... i think you start to get ad rev.... and as it seems that i cannot trick any EU residence permit holder into marrying me... trying 7 years... or rather i was trying for 6...it was THE only criteria for a mate....  and i had plenty of good European women friends all my 20s... much of my 30s..... one, Christina Pinto  of Estremoz ...was even actual real fiancee 2003 ....most beloved friend... just good friends but extremely special " ok mister i think we should...but not yet" good friends... though we both had some 'stuff' to do first........  and she went and bloody died first before doing any stuff

... anyway definition of " committment" is: " ohhh... so you havent even got residence rights....not any rights... to abode... elsewhere, despite being born elsewhere...... well that's a bummer because i so value you, alone,  i shall now have to rescind my only bloody marriage criteria ...  ok fat bums excluded....   as there is only pne i would wish to marry for non passport reasons and... that trumps...of course, my desperate need to get out of this toxic aisle..."    .... if there were ever some 'revenue' ... well one can get a digital nomad visa to..

. Croatia at least.... and as i have been a tetiscent digital, happy nomad rather a lit if the last 4 years.... i have earned that moniker....)


i so rarely check stats ( this one was 70 views a day last time by accident i saw... ) .. no idea why folk youtube subscribe and no second guessing means they could be anyone....



 this latest  one ..i dont usually even open the new subscriber emails....  maybe she made this? i thik its rather good




( goes with utterly lovely film i saw last night had me quite shocked it was so surprisingly....sincere...

... please note uk can never make films where you feel the "humans" ... writing it and Be ing in it...actually like children...)