yesteraft

i need to note for diary return

"ehh up Mister Mossy... I have only met two ...[ ok 3 if we include Lee Smolin 20 years ago....2020 " my  two amazing clever dick string theiries may be completely off with the fairies... we may know NOTHING.. . so just... forget all us cleverdick ultraminds and nobel wamnabes..... love the people close by...if they ket you"] ...geniuses in my life... both in the last six months... even if #1 i knew a year ago... not that being called genius does one a gram of good.... 

" a wonky woman who loved taxidermy called me one at the dawn of last decade... wrird bizarre i never understood...   she said her and her ultra Tom Paul ex ...him lingering still she had the money.... had conferred i was one they were only wrong... then.... but maybe she could see the future...how her legal hijinks may alchemise some weird new force that ...  just maybe

" ... i have no interest in my own  phases of ... the odd sillu batyle with Cyclops...

" but your missus... the superb writing ... but more than that... being brave enough to refer to 'human' in books for young humans as pretty dubious otherspecies that are so hard to understand ... thats  true bravery only George Elliot kinda started ..

" and works.... but it is her ... errata their [ "i just adore collaboration it is god!"..]..  filmscript backbone ...  foundation....  whatever one may call,  method of telling the story...

" ten years or more in fact no twenty ago....i kinda shifted a dial within, it seemed to work.... live in the moment and fight if necessary for justice or just  simplest obvious goodness in this life... but simultaneously see it all as a  surreal Homeric Odyssey... a story...  a journey, pilgremage ...

that made the painful times far easier to bear.. 

.its about movement...ramblin on even if not going very far.... trusting the odyssey will come good one day....  but yes 

somehow

the stories ... the experiences episodes...are alive and must be cherished and somehow given their own freedom ... along the journey...not in pious earnest official workshoping  for money, mode...

... all thats hard... how to live - even roll out the story, what  capitalist mode to maybe  dance to... me i cannot... 

but simply  i myself was a bit stuck.... what is this perfect cheeky even provocative odyssey...  it is timeless... some writers and thinkers deployed variants... Candide.. The Don....even my favourite Florentino and his boats...

pilgremage for purpose but never pious purpose

having to voyage 

but bever running away - that is never the quay...

and you Missus and her non sexual helpmeet ... fuck they have it to perfection. . i have sat and studied it all..   it is perfect..."