To begin.... ('soulful')

 she did read 'the beginning'? but then....

For Z. She's the future. I know we're the past and i like that...

{ " i so so love names that begin with Z i coerced and manipulated and  abused my way, so that my lass has one beginning with it, too" }

Will she believe " i have absolutely NO  interest in any [English born]person, event... observation, thing heard, Helford river utterly shitcreeked, down here, in any way.... or anything else for a year,  indeed my life ended a year ago, so as to begin again, having done my 'bit' ... to at last find  a good mind ...i did... even of there were some curious 'mammoths'... ...

" but that was  just a really alive interesting form of true perfect rightly earned loneliness on both sides" 

but then one simply needs great art to help ..

" i came...i saw...and you live here:  while much of the rest of Europe was still in the Middle ages in some ways 1970s ... the greatest British artists of true genius, perfectly described exactly where you live.... that shitcreek, and all around ...sadly even here in Quiettown, too.. except maybe for one who threw at me out of left field how womens' bones get soft out of spitting out another scrofulous human..... but she's taken... maybe ..."

To be entering ones adulthood ...starts about 15 i guess that first phase.... with him in that very year as our poet god....

and mentor

You cannot get a more perfect start... that applies every word still today..." laughing into the wind"

But to  go back to even earlier... 

Whilst much of Central Europe (not SE Central... i know not about SE central  ) was chaining their loons to iron beds... 

One man was showing the whole arts world that to be A REAL GENIUS ARTIST YOU CARRY ON YOUR DAY JOB... accidental cap... because you must not be elevated above, life...and tension, anyway real art comes not from 

(live camera action this dusk... i should have known better.... where is the Zulu when you need her a real bloody woman "And her pronouncements, such as decrying the “Guardian reading, tofu eating wokerati” ...")

I am quite sure Kev was absolutely brickin it if he would get fired from his job; many many years looking after the loons, on the hill....and so so creatively telling us their lives with REAL 'empathy'...  No time to be 'activist' so as to get 4chan free tea.... actually working to help his friends on the hill, by real help and managing  real culture that makes a real difference " this pagan life is gettin' me down 

I know the feeling