I wasn't planning it, and didn't 'need' it, but now the autumn settles in, and the hype of a seaside summer abates - even if i am world expert at being
aside
the seaside hype or any hype. Ever!
In fact although it could be absolutely ANYwhere
though in the case of this particular 'where' I had no idea it was quite like this
So intense; so judgemental. Simply, as if a suburb - suburban needs to be somehow noticed EVERYwhere...
Noticed by fancy sunglasses
by being on the silly phone noticing other things, not here and now i the present.
Hardly anyone wearing ANY 'ordinary' clothing.
Myself for all my life i have only worn only ordinary clothing - simple, durable; darker colours as they go longer between washes - any 'environmentalist' minded person knew so fourty years ago; clothing NOT to ever be noticed and the last 5 or so years only taking to the hat to cover my one vanity that middle age baldilocks...
and the few months in my 20s when i succumbed to a Kings Rd Reiss habit... I never even wore the fancier shirts 'comfort' shopped, because i knew before i even got the fine new designer bags home, i was seeking to be what i knew not to be, as i was temporarily utterly lost at sea.
(though an environmentally inclined peep would never dump them at sea in angsty disgust - i still have them all and there is NOTHING better for the soul than winking at mine as i nowadays slip into my once latest Reisshop fashion shirt left boxed for 30 years until as sure as ferrets are ferrets ones circumstances reduce and i am grateful for my youthful errant phase, as fair dinkum they were well made such that they now go for a few years at least ... nowadays not at all standing out as some desperate 'need' to self express...or whatever the latest silly words are for showing bourgeois status...
Indeed - although this, the first photograph in this 'identity' (photostore) - penname...i like him...
Is about something - as i put it up 2020 or was it 21....i would not at that time even dare for a second sharing with anyone even a helpmeet "watching my back" because its about ...MAYBE ...one day... i will be FREE to ramble on somehow both geographically and spiritually and actually name the mad - it can be nothing else, mad family who brutally buried alive with diggers a huge badger set July 2020 WITH the cubs still down below... It is about how i KNEW i had some responsibility to do SOMEting... even if one day it would be to share it - my many photographs of that disgusting cruel crime, and some film.... and stories of the aftermath, with a good pictorial artist who maybe might somehow create some beautiful painting to somehow almost engender some real 'justice' for the beautiful wild animals bothering absolutely no one, high up in their 'sanctuary' set in the hills, and the regional top guns (i mean main real 'soft' 'power') of Extinction Rebellion (and regional senior church warden and spokesperson and writer for the church times! about pious self righteous i-am-perfect stuff) actually own the land where knowingly these protected wild animals are snuffed out in perhaps the most cruel and dastardly manner... i wonder how long it took mumbrock and dadbrock and cubs huddled together - no way to dig out, exists filled in (efficiently i noticed and photod later on - fallen wood placed over the filled in LARGE holes so that no passing rambler would notice the crimes
So, 35 year old Reiss shirt (i was so embarrassed at the time having even thought i may ever wear such impractical showoff shirtage even outdoors) happily brought into service maybe 7 or 8 years ago ...rest of shirts getting a bit tatty and ragged and somehow there was such a sense of satisfaction in doing so knowing that even my old once sillysef was now not being wasted...
But of course - this photograph was still taken - staged (i never do that) in a sense of fear... knowing i would never have the guts to make my point never mind share the names... because NO ONE CAN EVER BE TRSTED..... TRUST... there are simplest 'lines' extent, since power and wealth and ownership were invented - the owners will get greedier and will go a bit mad...
So one needs totally trusted ALLIES among the nonowner class with whom one may at least be able to share " look...i will never tell anyone else its just too risky.... his contractors jcbd those cubs to a slow lingering death huddled underground... maybe weeks it took them to stave to death if they had by chance a little air circulating still.... they will be ignorant bullnecks and if even one word ever reached anyone maybe in their local pub, kids school.... someone saw it all AND photographed it many a day afterwards even as an 'art' project'.. they will assume arrest and clink and thus will hurt me..... so even if i will probably never tell anyone else his and hers name ... [ if they dont own one, they are archetype - spitting image and behaviour and way of being, of every so so so 'nice' middle class or upper mid, rich couple owning a coastal getaway cottage or house i have seen...] at least i have you to share it with and know that no matter WHAT ever happens between us you would understand that line - why it is essential for my lifelong safety, and that you will never ever utter a hint i saw, knew whom and where... no one else i have ever hinted at the whom and even where!"
But then ... all i have really discovered three years...no Britisher ever ever ever even knows what that line...is....
In which case all nonsense talk of even "bodily justice", is i am sorry fairy talk...
Before we have such clever workshopping words like "bodily justice" - sadly and the utterer of those words i am surprised she for one would not understand...from a bloody war zone!
There are TWO sides.... always. Be... Be very careful in life. Because only arrogant fools assume they can bridge both sides of the cavern.
In fact it is interesting how the CONSUME HARDLY ANYTHING message 25% almost adhered to, and 75% of people knew very well was sane, in britain when it was one of the most advanced societies in the world has become the new battle ground...
'light footprint' living was old hat even in the 80s!
But i shall return to that And why all the modern day proponents are pathetically inadequate in that sUper simplifying leaves time and energy for living FAR more richly... and no one ever these days seems to be able to ram that home as item one!
None of these items are required in any way for ordinary life:
Any dull coloured durable clothing not from a charity shop
sunglasses - from the £1 shop variety to the £100 variety it seems virtually everyone wishes anyone walking in the opposite direction to assume they are....even if sunglasses only prove how uneducated the wearer is in that there has been clearcut science for years proving that we mess with the UV sensory systems in the back of our eyes and all sorts of necessary BODILY systems are fucked with and some of these systems such as maybe routine automatic protection against cancers.... we do not yet even begin to understand... but there is one FACT: nature/evolution is pretty clever and 100s of thousands of years ago was evolving clever fixes to things like cancer or maybe even things like 'anxiety' and being sad....and not sleeping when nature REQUIRES! ... and clever old nature will have created all sorts of clever self regulation systems .... some which we may never understand.... and one of the main 'markers' - a scientific term of sorts, is that systems ebb and flow dependent on measured ambient UV (and also likely IR) and ANY change that alters the phenotype (evolved genetic state PLUS variable environmental factors - in this case reducing or changing the kind of UV/ IR measured in the eye - CHANGING those from levels we have experienced ALL our millions of years of evolution, to a completely new range by dint of being 'filtered' by coloured bits of plastic )
...will have consequences it may take decades to even notice.... never mind understand. And ANYthing that works against the naturally millions-of-years evolved state, is always....bad.
i.e. at last for a decade a fair few parents have at LAST listened, even if it was known 30 years ago by science: "want a HEALTHY child, that lives longer than [modern] average.?... it should eat dirt for at least the first year or so of its life.... because loads of pathogens when young TUNES UP the 'immune system'. And in fact that is incorect word usage. The immune system IS [designed by evolution] to ONLY be at optimum after a few early years learning what it needs to architecturally incorporate to be a fully functional 'immune' sytsem...
Or simply put: very few dirty things in gob... you dont really have an 'immune' system as the ocd sterile human due to a cultural construct [ defiately a con this one] of cleanliness=godliness, has stuck a huge spanner in the cogs and levers that ARE the immune system...
showoff plastic WALKING STICKS (my god as if some magic potion has been invented.... series to come, on ....ehhh maybe not...)
showoff vehicles
ANY tattoos
And now everywhere showoff dogs and £50+ dog harnesses, £100+ designer dog jackets even in August which last time i looked was still summer, or even better many 100£ dog prams, or other ESSENTIAL
And thats just the start of my list...i OBSERVED (Barbie ! i hope you wont mind that nickname - ALL that matters is in fact in the second photo...)
(to be cont...)
