Perhaps best put this whole tyranny for years - like all tyrannies it started out with good intent:
I can BE anything!
i want.
Forgetting that the best thing to be first,
is to know how to Be absolutely nothing at all, for years and years...
Not the 'best' way to be
But certainly the best lesson to learn, so one can go on tolerating this bonkers existence
Where it seems nothing nice can just Be...
And damn it every time i ponder: "kairos time to bungee jump off the cliff without an elastic band" I go and find it ok being alive, but i have absolutely no idea why to bother.
The dichotomous moral to the story - long ago discovered, part a., if one ever did want to do a Camus, well... be so so well fed, rested, and... more than 'rested' have several nights of perfect fullest sleep. SO as one can maybe even enjoy the last moments knowing one is in perfect knowing its the right thing to do. But part b is also that being in such a well perfect-sleep mode for days, none of it ... them, seem worth ending it all for ... may as well plod on...
When art was...hmmmm....... or just got it RIGHT...and UK was great
