all - see below...just a 'fable' of course - even good writers cannot BE any change or ever value any words - let hem live within, bodily make any diference...... good job i dont consider any time 'wasted', or any waste...ever. It is he journet and (not Karl Ove  miserable weirdo ) 'struggle' that we do 'learn' from = who we are...or were. I know more than enough for ten Proustian  sets of waffle (" when you become writer.... FIRST learn to get out of the way of the words...second - the great ones say they write 1000 lines...trot out loads every morning...and they accept that only ten are ever any good.....so stop trying to control, ANYhing... or think you will be any different... you already have the life force  - never use the meaningless word 'spiritual' coopted by every fraud ever especially on Guardian defunct dating dotcom......backbone, balls, grit... POSTURE! .. bright eyes.....and maybe even 'insight' already, only 0.01% have.... trust in that...to be there for a 'reason'??.... and dance with it as an EQUAL ..daily... thats your career my sweet... as you too, know")