the problem is that the 'why' is so damn interesting... better than Bovary, or Proust...makes Odysseus look like an extreme sports holiday maker .
Just the Rachel Bramble/ Mulhally year ( public figure, sold her lies to gov ministers as she boasted often..two names to hide as she was 30 year career social worker)
" Si... [ 5 years riffing person to person... she found me via media online. Si prob with social workers 70% are just so thick..".... si... why dont you ask me... i would do it... "
" rache ... because i know you live 125 km away. i have probably forced a way in to the school.... one teacher agrees that a good one to one session with a professional ..in neutral territory may help.... start fresh...no talk of past ... just smiles and go forward.. but Wales is fascist [ as on any answers saturday 15th july...fine resident states why] and the taffia bossocracy may interfere.... i wouldnt ask you as it may be a wasted trip..abyway i cant afford your petrol..i finito...."
" no si...we got plenty of money.... no problem...it would be my privelage...i know you are right....anyway you did so mjch for us....... befriend her...nice grown up emails with her i will try now...then i will go meet get ..i will get in!"
fast forward a week..
" ok si.... got a day free next tuesday.... how do i get there..."
" well Racbe.... you know where i live... all these years ... you read all my media.... best way in is always via Leominster... i will meet you in Hay... 5 km up road from my hermitude. "
" oh... ehh...how far do you reckon..."
" [not expressing exasperation, after all. when one is a captive to their hostage taking....and spending 50+ hrs on talking through things with a friend-'professional' who has books on social work written by her...her NEW super new ace lovely holistic philosophy and methods.. in every ministers office...well]... well its alays been the same 120 maybe 30 km... couple hours easy run.....you came down 7 years ago if i recall to meet media re the thing then 2003........ ."
" ohh Si ... oh we got an illness.... cant be in the car for more than an hour or i get mental.... [ some LABEL term of course used ]... sorry si its not gonna be possible..."
fuck you and your people pleasing narcissistic insanity where you cannot listen to a simple distance many times related...never mind think before opening gob.... may have eventually been trasmutted more politely some months on....
but the time wasted...on the mass BPD... even within the ranks who were... prob still are... seniior social workers in charge of super new trendy wellness programs for large midlands schools
is just one extreme example...of many whys.... and why for protection a decade ago i started to collect.. record.... every single sick...lie
a lie us a lie a truth is a truth.
period
or not
but thats not sexy or interesting.... and as my many year by time- wasted necessity my simple life is never melodramatic. . thats not zeitgeist sexy edgy either..so i shouldnt bother
but if i say i will, i do
but how to weave... in other stories to make it bestseller...hmmm cos i have too many
