... i must stop, its no fun really....
thirty years,ago... kindof exact 30 year anniversary
The one i did trust...as did our Croat-Serb adoptee...
the three of us adults two years a loyal little family
no one else
just kids and us
" hey...were all going back [to his bank account] a few weeks [illlegally abducted from...a country next door] why dont you come have a few days in London at the [parents]...flat ..if bored out in booneys... get some culture... some soulful peeps ..[ flat i did up, for free..for her kids...happiest 2 years of life].... just turn up any time you want..V here as usual...."
turning up .... cost of travel £50
from stix gone and run away to....
Vanja: "....ohh... she called me.... told me she changed her sick mind. . .she said '.if S comes tell him someone else using the bedrooms now.'.. . "
" what..!!?.i just came only cos of her invite.....see what beeds fixing while ive been gone...as usual...quid pro quo......no one else ever been here....now whats goin on with her dont tbey teach them English at her Oxford university. top degree..she knows i live on breadline 2 years dedicated to her brood so lovingly... .. Jesus Christ, Van ... even her... the one they all look up to as Mother fuckin Theresa perfect mum... two years pure zen weve all done here with you. ... ultra goody goody ... poor you being refugeed here .. i think you would have been mentally safer back in the war zone... no idea what side one is on here..
"Van in fact. ...fuck Katrina...last straw... .our total loyalty to her even through the eating probs. we loyal...caring .. ohh i forgot.... it seems behind 2 years of best ever acting.. mothering all us humble folk... adopting the humbleish Kirsten and Phil... in a mess..and but only does that fuck her... if big fat bank account. .. poor James...i hope he knows this... he seemed ok... but..
" ...yet another wasted tank of petrol. ..i am gone..for good"
( oooh.... but 10 years later...how geniusly ....she may...may innix...have taken revenge. ...when i was at the ultimate nadir of needing one ally...she promises on her lasses lives.... her mate, daughters godfather.. me as good as a few years . my barrister ... sickest man i ever knew!.. was it deliberate? clever English actresses...of course i can never know . )
that was however
the end.
20 years a pure silver lining ultra
bonus
however these one dimensional frauds...if only they knew for their sake how so much more interesting life is..
truly alive
wonderful
often fun
if they could stop for one minute
being
them
