(whilst major upload underway...)
Now, this will look like a dull picture of a dowdyish woman ... maybe almost tramp - 'busker'
The Turner prize winning (i shall never apply) full version, is a series of photos, that show her slowly turn to me....
That capture THE only beauty i ever really respond to, emotionally, that 'look'...
Of ...ONLY the truly humble person, who doesnt bother getting het teeth fixed as she knows no one will really fancy her...
..I have only spied maybe half a dozen times in my life...and every moment, only of hose people, is as fresh in my minds eye as if beauty had only just been invented in a universe of only grey..
And i never 'name' anyone, but as Aofie and i became true real allies, over the hour that followed..sharing tips on music and all sorts..
And best of all "No mister, i have to correct you, only on one thing, i disagree strongly with that word you used.."
Is paradise.
especially when
" ferk me with your dowdy old worn bag..i did notice..it is why i decided i wanted to speak with you..... you are so ferkin intelligent, songs, luv... waste of your extreme intellect. and wish for TRUE truth.... you must write... [to be continued, added to... she changed my life and i KNEW my life was impossible to change, i know it all...]"
.....the younger are fine, but they are lost.... I spent 20 years with a range of them under my wing - for REAL - which means years at a time... patiently... always there always cheerful for them, and treating them as my equals....
They are lost... of no use to me.
ONLY 'authoritative' people are - which means we have lived this far - are vaguely sane, in our fifties.... and anyway if only 50somethings knew...ONLY the mind is attractive, desirable; and right fuckin sexy if there is a bit of backbone, spirit, and loadsa grey hair... thirty year olds.... never... the fifty year old wont believe even if i swear on my one-beloved's life...
She got the other one... Mister Freedom of Speech...
And did 'get' it - " doesnt natter who ferked me.... which fascist lite step family...or gov minister...I am on the same VERY select page of famous cases as your Sean...when i was your age i was lost - utterly.... and then shit happened, but ONLY as i had read great books, did i have the stupid imagination i may turn that shit to not only real good, but i learned and turned oppression into a tutor, injustice yes was my nurse... turned me into a man.... i had no idea what i was doing when someone asked me to sell this book for them... https://books.google.co.uk/books/about/The_Committee.html?id=bxGHAAAAIAAJ&redir_esc=y
96ish...
until it changed my life... that truth.
But then.... the notion one day i may be alongside Sean...me.... i have no education, except the so many good books - LITERATURE....
i would have thrown you out of my bed if you had thirty years ago even hinted at such madness..... [which is a sort of Black Swan - in fact the 'feeling' bit especially - nope it doesnt make you feel proud or happy...doing ones duty toher generation, is just that - a duty.... "
