Now, 'free speech' that rather Miss Understood concept, indeed by metoo ....

You have to start with speech.

(and knowing why The Serb - the one sane priest  - bloke, as 'feminine' don't exist, even if it will take them another whole Enlightenment to have that electric drilled into their stupidphones...

glued to their unhearin' ears..

 ask the Soviet planners of the slave labour, who figured that both sexes could do more or less the same amount of work on the same   'ration' of gruel, and seemed to live longertoo,  and of course one cannot 'control' for anything real in any lab, or place rather limited for choice as to whom  you sleep next to....

or how many bedbugs falling from  the baker's brow,  flavour and increase the nutritional value of your ржаной хлеб - hahh hahh the modern one as it began that couple taking over the 'Deli' ....

" ehhh....well, we have lived on your rye and fennel,  [ i knew it was :-) ]  khleb ...for the last six or seven years ....   now we saw all your advertorials about how your lovely'community' values home grown in fuckin Primrose Hill [well her Wikki is rather out of date the way i saw her so called 'husband' the worst musician in history ever,  who got the grants and public fundin' to torture the locals at the community events....slithering  around the alley of Prtesteigne and the way twenty twenty he slithered around the younger model,  i mean any real man knows that something in her tie-dyed twenties and compulsory Doc martens mid summer.... really really....  i shall never forget his look of Gollomite obsequiousness as he stared into her eyes hand in hand loves young dream even if he mustv been fairly fifty summit....

... the greatest cliche of all time..

...you couldn't make up

so cheap cheesy fermented on  expensive cheese, like theirs he paid for his several trendy-vans,  vans peddlin'... most of which ended up dumped in the layby..] guarantee no changes under new ownership.... funny that, even chief Oxbridge-to-nowehere-Don, moron up in his Way-on-heights, up the hill said to me when the price of bread goes up rather a lot, even the THIRTY percent you've risen it without any other changes in anything,  blood on the streets follows... as sure as ferrits are....  .."

Silly me....  now i assumed so many years that 'middle class' educated even literary 'values' meant that a bit of truth is welcomed...m in the fake home of the once Enlightenemented..)

speech, any actual scientific  mind, there being no other 'reality' any mere mortal mind could ever grasp,  buggered everything up, that's ever ever ever ...cause and effect just about figureable..

almost all being a figure of it.

The problem is that those figures, really do get rammed up hard where poor old madman Muammar  got it, and then used to metal bar belt you round the boncetoo...

Meaning, indeed it's an insult to sheep to say that "humans" just follow the few dawdlin' along in front, randomly

And it's the "random" they simply cannot ever again understand...

I mean the so called bonkers warrior Jenny Cideres... one just knows their priests are going to have been even more death-cult on the look out for any dissent from the mad propaganda of the letters of Paul, or  obsessed for decades only upon how they might steal the Corinthians land too.... 

Never mind get one over on that randomly even more lets-start-a-Jenny neighbouring lot....

and randomly it turns out that Serbian priests, evolved... 

By a process of evolution is a weird bonkers unfathomable series of improbable impossibilities, like the next valley over not having a Sow-western Coastal Path going through it where the amount of chemicals that both sexes need to wear just to go for a stroll in their PFAs  flavoured attire, hasnt killed all the bees in that onetoo... while shoppin' on etsy for their next Bee-logo'd plastic.... 

[as one can smell sensory garden wise at least 30m downwind and even about 10 up]

errata, all one's life just an errata......

... the ordinary sheep-btrained (having lived WITH them for some years - i mean actually in the  field we shared in constant curiosoity for three years of each others weird animalosity,  i know their limitations and that each of them is also actually a real individual with genuinely original iconoclastic behaviour unique to their fully autonmous randomly mindful of 'self'... unlike the middle classes of the Peninsula (thats them all P{asties for decades conning the country they live in poverty when in fact the data is highest car ownership per peep than in any other county) 

Anyway having at last discovered really what the boostero was invented for...

No randomness, mere fact; ehh yes the herd of.... the words now break down i spent several months finally realising accept that there is a whole language Missin'...

now they stole all the once ok words.

And certainly no good books or even films bringing in new useful shared Lexies such as Lexi Stepford....  lives next door to her polly-amourWalt Mitty ... who shares her with the babe who alchemised a whole new take on shamania and sells it to the upper middle... 

(i do have data points, the best ever from 15 months ago as ALL her tenants except one would confirm "what a fuckin cowgirl renting out these 'community' spaces on her 'eco farm' for these prices, so she can afford to pivot from her buddhist studies to Jenny-came-later, new child with her head on the block, shamania classes,  when they havent even got a bog plumbed in..scandal... and then there's the parking.... and the way they kicked out a tennant for the summer when her 'guru' comes to do his facilitations...and needs that big mouldy tent for some peace and quiet . ") 

Anyway i jhave little interest in the whatever animal is more follow-the-leader than sheep are in real life. It's the leaders. Who are in dire straits...

Especially when they started to get all clever dick and come up with silly delineators such as "gen z" .. 

Indeed you have to sink lower than a Yank  who thinks they have a brain to a Canadian  with his ridiculous "gen x"  even if the awful Bret Easton Ellis is said to have  been "the voice of..."

nothing much; i dipped into his silly gory nonsense, indeed just copying  the writers of  the worst culture ever in history that did harm everyone, Twin Peaks  even if it wasn't going to be written for three or four years after Bret's dumb Zero of a book...

All just sick nerdy bedroom bound pill raised nerds with nothing to say except I am bleaker than the bedroom next door..

But this is now, and when there is enough data to say something in general about nothing happening for fifty years - same wars on the telly late 70s, in fact arguably more blood and gore and rotting rubbish then than now... no adult then beginning ever bbc appearance with 'in times like these ..'  bleat bleat an insult to sheep... who may indeed have an individual take on it all,  and at least be able to smell the slaughterhouse, five fields down...

yes when the so called thought leaders endlessly just go on about 'gen zee' or ex or now alpha....

right out of left field comes at last a truly great mind, a halfbreed, too..

I had never heard of

two hundred and some years ago  " ehh everyones the same..its just habits... ideas and culture if you must be intellectual about it.. that differ.."

Anyway one hears that so called Gen Zee have gone and found the medicine cabinet where the out of date dangerous athletes foot powders are...

The words one knew one would never ever hear, as an affront to taste and cultural critique rolled up into one sweaty headband: " Dire Straits have become bestsellrs once more, gen Zeee having discovered them... .."

But as for cause and effect, i would posit that its just as likely that the word 'alchemy' has become compulsory for at least seven or eight years, in certain circles - the ones that want to have an easy life selling bullshit rather than working hard with a rag and some gumption in a circular fashion wiping thbe hard to remove pisstain in the local council (or 'community' bogs

or more likely some notion of solidarity or mentorship and authenticity with a man   who via second sight before his time, knew that one day it would become almost impossible to be seen out even at a light trot without a band of elastic around your forrid  protecting your eyes so you can see the way it makes you look good...

or some such sickness

especially in jacket choice when all sane men knew that  such choices were not actually for men... 

indeed the Serbian priest was right ...

very very second sightly...

but it will have to wait.

A bit.

All i know is that  - nothing tpo do with me or my life of stealthy asideness and hermitude, my god they  - AND WE ARE TALKING the EPICENTRE OF THE Source ...not only hate free speech 

But when two tribes are at it all day for two years word jabbing each other... 

(in their little paradise  - the ultimate in theme park paradises )

despite the tourist and estate agents brochury ...

And the effect is THAT!

(on them...nothing to do with me )

wow.... this is a better parable, word picture, actual dissolving of the whole sugar coated leaf of rice paper  advertising every lovely midfulness practice and workshop and soulplenishy nonsense, abundantly   in an acid bath

 Than ANYthing about the so called, probably made up and then besmirched,  Pharisees...

This is.....

The crown jewel..

even better than the Hay Deli one...

This is the ultimate true story.. that nobody in the theme park can deny as...

to be cont

But there's so much far better wistful no-hubris stuff already baked in the oven except  it's too hot around this kitchen* to write much even if this kitchen is way down the list of interesting examples..

* really like going back to borderlands of wales early 90s seen with a laptop out you are considered doing something to summon the devil! not kidding

So, now, it's so much zen-fun, never mind cheap, Orwelling* among the 'middle class'.

 Especially as they don't notice anything...

Indeed to quote the towny-neurotic AI A flâneur (pronounced flah-ner) is a French noun that refers to an urban explorer who wanders city streets aimlessly but observantly

Well it's wrong in one respect the 'urban' as a sane and inclusive person  knows that full whackjob or progressively known as Altered Perception Syndrome as so beautifully shared with us in the Horizon, (link in mentul elven thing) progressed as cities progressed  the two main factors in seeing lizards join you at the coffee table being living in cities AND the far more interesting one being a WHITE immo - or at least fairly white, 

 from Kalaallit Nunaat, forced to go and live in some Danish  hell hole, as the religious big-eats, know better

https://www.theguardian.com/film/2020/may/26/babettes-feast-julian-baggini-lockdown

Babette's Feast: Julian Baggini savours the ultimate lockdown movie

which apart from ...well there wasn't any problem grocery shopping in civilisation - the places aside... indeed the glorious year of our Lord made everyone slow down and linger in the aisles thus having time to flirt and enjoy being given the eye, as every single one did even the middle class invaders, (note to self its so interesting how every single social policy speaker is STILL blaming 2020 for everything my god it's even more ... i lose the ability to think of a word it's so concentration camp....)

Anyway Babs  even if it encouraged the reason that nobody EVER does anything  - foodie culture, one must feel sorry for, as a truly spartan monkish diet is the key to the cave where the  mentul elves  have their orgies as its all just about all the choices  - too many back passages to explore; choice but indeed 'abundance' the exact opposite of what is good for you as with scarcity or just accepting nothing much, very occasionally when one may have  something a bit special its not just 'enjoyable' but in real life one realises it was nothing much worth talking about,  to begin with. 

Anyway Babs a fantasy, not worth watching, In the Anglosphere, in that  its about changing your mind, that ones fellow human is such a cunt that you can't ever have a cuppa with them never mind her bourgeois dilettante coquettish 'feast' 

, and so beautifully done even if fantasy worse that their latterday bible, knocking George off her rightful pedestal as best book ever even if her quieter one Silas is better but so called Angloprofessorship is addicted to a stormtossed rocking boat unable to appreciate the calm, and quiet, where we learn so much more and theyve now completed the final march to the death camp, to Mordor...where there never was ANYthing to be learned... .(as Griselda who sold the filth at OUP said of her 13 year old"  using magyc, i make her read real books, in that we learn so much more from REAL life,...") ; but then the other aspect, " we could have..... "  "we may have....." ...had the door slid in the other direction.... is something one can never say anything about, or at least...

to be cont

Aggccchhh too much gobbledygook; what does one do when one discovers by accident,  accidentally, un 'intentional' ly (their new word for so called community)  that in the true centre of tie-dye. calm and plenishy "community"  all along there was the most unpleasant Trolley 'hate' ongoing on their....meedia... their community 'hub' ... 

It is pure poetry! 

Anyway the wonderful thing in middle class 'earth'  is nobody notices much as they are so busy on their phones, even on a walk .... 

I have no interest in  other than to understand the last region up until three years ago... (ahahhh a Yank on the big one -  quite extraordinary that in Britain Start The week can begin with "original sin"  in an accent where they were so thick they came up with The Bell Curve  some years after 

(last ever paste of IT 

While traditional IQ tests can predict academic and specific task performance, scientists have largely debunked the idea that a single number perfectly measures a person's overall "intelligence."

And far more importantly in the early 90s almost ALL of so called 'genetic' stuff being woirk-outable,  was rightly put to bed by Lewontin Rose Kamin  et quite a few others  but nobody told the meedia...

Or people. 

* the piggie one. 

 

of course it was quite beautiful...

 And even if the book,  or in her case books all 700pp ish if my memory serves,  is always better ...it goes in further and stays alive in an actual higher  ' consciousness'  decades, so much more,  film is necessary to humanise  some aspects... "Genia...." 

What remains alive is hardly anything when hardly anyone knows of her best ever books ten times better than sour old Solzhenitsyn or any of the Gulag ' bros'  

1000s more pages soon as theyre already written

And 8 know ive forgotten the best ones for now but mental health means having a 100%  accurate always chronicling system double backed up no matter what

which will be a glorious enjoyable way to spend another 20 year cycle

as its Only pleasure to reflect on every fuckwit and their inability to use any human words

which istoo her  ' zen' 

knowing you just make a choice

and it eas certainly the only one open to you

As you have a gine healthy mind

And know just  how useless all the rest always will be

as you've done the ' work' on universal humanness

you wont find in any ' self help'

 

ohh thats a point dont gorget a rare look down the library aisles i had no idea it was ONLY  angsty horror movie style crime 

i mean 97%>>> fact

not surprising theyre all on the pill

I MUST NOT LOSE THAT ONE!!

what was it?

(guess she was just one, too.... two decades ago i rit on my notepad " all life became was endless intermittent faults'..) 

ehhh agghhhhh.....

superb piece about woman  gets a bit of cash from being on shit telly gets ill goes and gets 'magycal healing'And ends up in looney bin...

But it was the tone, for the BBC it was nearly dramatic as it should be even if they should have set it where i am now...:

so so perfectly self assured, endlessly on her phone, just the right anorac a 500 quid piped one that looks Glastonbury compliant if patinated with the right kind of mud... "wow ive found this LOVELY radical energy healing LOVELY woman who just exudes perfect energy.." as i am sure she told her wardrobe assistant her only actual friend, paid

And the energy healing puts her full whackjob barking at the full moon it was beautiful!

Almost as beautiful as 

I even have the date seared into my higher consciousness 21st May 2026 halleluyah...

Nanny the drama

https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/m002wkjf

even if there's no point going for their fellow 35 year olds..its the fifty five - 65  year olds who caused them to be the 35 year old  lot they are 

And the 55-65 year old who have the power ...

nobody dare go for them

Where is Lady Voltaire  when you need her even if i ned nowt i only give love....i have so much material for her its daft

that is human-loving and lovely

cos it tells their truth

those of the High Priestesses nobody else even dares query...

 whom all the other HPs of The Source (that is so genoius - HP sauce but the only truly great mind i have known being immo she would Miss it) hate cos they are like any other corporate vile self serving shareholder corporation that wont share anything!... competing

whist pretending for the  no-men-clatter script 'community'

or did i put it up?

It was funny and only laughter will save you from them...

especially (its all in handwriting, soon) ..they get the one  word they never ever use - the grants ("offerings" as they would word-warp;  in triplicate only if you learned to work in the offices of Palantir or whatever else greedy bigcorp) 

the public money  ... ( like Palantir lobbying to get the dodgy contracts nobody voted for or would agree to if they knew what went on behind their closed doors...I'm talking about the selkie faerie embodied manifestations of the pushme pullyou.... now, Palantir are dull compared to their supreme con... that has indeed fair dinkum Huxley's soma, worked... for them if not their fare paying,  victims..  )

  

 ...to be cont lots of bits missed lots of nice handwriting - the purpose of mental elf - they never tell you that the PURPOSE...

is to have far nicer handwriting than ever before despite hell on earth.

And remember what you wrote.

Which means that every 'workshop'  bit of 'work' .... 

toolkit

bit of 'radical love' ...

is for...

define: failure.

Indeed would not even understand as you have to be an adult that the purpose of any 'institution' (charity / CIC / 'program'  etc)  is to put itself out of business.

If that isn't top line of the mission statement  it's just a Ponzi scheme ...adding to the 3 trillion already in hock

why you will get your Nigel - cos you're addicted to self arm too

Anyway why....errata how...  "and we watched on Tito-tv how you  all screwed up your children, too..."

Problem is what with the earth mothership UTTERLY stealing the language at one end, (the most ultra PR i have ever seen)  and AI or merely a very thick automated browser all it is, scooping up all their bad language at the other

How on earth does any sweet innocent just-joining-the-herd immo learn ANY enjoyable words   that actually are deep and meaningful

Never mind the next generation

embodied, in only one woman.

 

Now Suzi knows even is she is hooked in too they need a Ragged done on them

To save them from, and heal them of, themselves 

(funny how THEY use their kids to beg for large amounts of cash when a law to use kids for honourable purpose, https://www.simonclayton2020.com/ to protect them from those who would pinch their kids they never even noticed.. or in fact too busy planning the next con to even bother to understand it.... )

talk about a cash cow - rates here must be 10k at least if not 50...

The mentul efl, elves... indeed that's an insult to the diverse elven peeps (i didn't know her middle name was Solomonova, wow... a bit of real wisdom unlike those rather one d Poles)

a chunk of splurge needs a LOT of work on😀 but if i drop dead with boredom heres a quick preview 

to be improved and finished soon - half below unfinished

emergency  rope ladder out of your hole (meaning i just know so so many hide away in hermitude for a week with the curtains drawn... and you are RIGHT - the mental elf rescue team if they find you will do far more harm than good...)

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Indeed stupid Al Gorrey and the miscellaneous blockers aren't going to know that one they are all so one dimensional  that the worst insult ever is to call someone one dimensional. 

 

right why are these here, well to celebrate the fact that it's impossible for even a Southern so called man to go out without it being a fashion occasion that requires a t-shirt telling you something usually in one word; Plus my god, the aesthetic... (i really had no idea but then it fits with the poetry evening 18 mths  ago when all they  do was present poems about their illnesses...i mean three prostrate poems in one session, of about six so called poets, sums up the whole of their dead peninsula.

But they always have some 'look' that reminds them of their privileged yoof in Bayswater. Which is a non sequitur as all town based rearings mean you are indeed more likely to have  aREALLY fucked up ill head, and they don't tell you this on the tin, that i can see from 50m away who is from where as the town or city air certainly ages you far more quickly   than bumpkin air. 

Always.

No exceptions. And buddhism won't help either

ahh yes here it is i have perfic mental faculties and remember every loose thread ...and SUPERB comedy show, especially when it's about forty years late, being anyone who knew the so called 'Far East'  even back then knew that Myanmar - i do believe 90% 'Buddhist' is on track to become almost as Potty as Pol Pot's rather unpleasant  killing fields 

Pope Leo and President Trump; Buddhist extremism; Gulf Christians

https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/m002v9jk

but you can't tell the likes of " ragheads are different they will NEVER EVER not dynamite everyone in the bus with them as they are just born different,  so of course the blue team are justified in shooting first kids in the head with drones on camera  and asking questions, never........ ohh yes i have  a new Buddhist mediation tape for $9.99 over on my other channel the most popular meditation app in the world "  

Though  the EAst has no interest to me, even if even 30 years ago you realised how  the same ole male characters started to hide behind the tai chi fancy dress....  (to be cont well it has been in a long audio attempting to tell tales elsewhere never in name unless.... they take public cash..)

Anyway mentul elf

 (walking does NOT 'improve' your mentul elfen wonky mess...) 

TEN FREE HOURS OF WHAT IT IS AND HOW TO GET IT!

you cannot make any money off, so it should be free

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1XdHrSWixWHrbLoLFxIih27qXkJCvANS-ZDkiDW-riUQ/edit?tab=t.0

Though you see here is what real mental healthy self critique is: FOOL me.... even if it was obvious it was the end of civilisation and intellectuality 30 years ago when the internet revved up and one could look up scientific research papers and essays by seemingly sane yanks, sanity one realised was indeed caring enough to put your name and DATE at the top or bottom of the paper.... as the timeline or before silly words took over sequence of things: Bental wrote that mental book then and two years later one saw that mind doctor writing that article, how interesting..is in fact called civilisation

But not any more....

Anyway healthy anything is admitting " hahh hahh i forgot the RULES! i myself established 30 years ago.... before quoting anything [as i did 2 days ago as " wow new info their fey god has blown a fuse"]  check the DATE!

Indeed same expensive trendy cowboy gear from BAyswater as the longform one three years ago... 

 

which is FAR more interesting when one factors in that at least 50% of Londoneshirers (all the Swest) talk of their "ADHD" in the first 1 minute of overhearing them... and 100% were conned by GAbors fuck-me looks some years ago...

But three years ago he turned on them (their benefits ticket  - far more subtle than just a hand out, a whole universe of handouts when Moonflower-Tarquin gets his pmlace at the special school..or the one by Gwerk...  you are special.

(ahh i even forgot i heard out of the actual WONERFUL gay mouth of a chap just in from 20 years in madhouse Central where he propheted from all the modern 'branding'  " i was at a party other day gay one of course and someone said 'retard' and the whole room went pin droppy, and then someone said in hushed tone ' you mean....we ...can....say...ree..tard again....??'     and then someone smiled a shy smile ...as if he was roomoving the dropped pin from his back passage bored with that sick kick....and we all  smiled at each other and cheered  top of our voices ' we can have the lovely banter insult back at last we are FREE....!!!!!!!!!" so fuck off i am up with the most leading zeity ones...)

 Anyway where was i...

....sue the fuckers...

(25% of the babes, and i reckon 100% of them live in Swesterlands...)

THE ICONED-THE-CLASS

conned for forty years...

Except its astonishing just how they cannot listen!

Still...in fact it will take decades they hold on to their "ohh its biochemical" when even i a very thick ordinary bloke kicked out of school 16  slowly slowly read good quiet plain simple lit books and the odd non fiction - must be 4:1, pondering what future age 33ish ..no A levels THe number one most popular psychology undergrad program in UK,  10 applicants for every place, all 9 others for mine lanyardists, social workers teachers all with their Btecs or whatever ....me nothing, but i wrote some essays about what i knew about mentual elfine nonsense from years of especially Evgenia...and i got the place!

(part time had to work a bit elsewhere to keep Hanning's leaky cheap roof over head) 

   But ...

... within a few months... one day though is traumatically seared into my below average sick mind

That day she - sorry it has to be a she, as a bloke wouldnt have the same narcissistic insanity gleaming in her self loving eyes... a bloke would have muttered and maybe got his pipe out, but no she....goddess creating the NEW human from her lectern the one that is leading the whole land.... to new Jerusalem  that'll pay one day for her £110 grand camper van she too busy to use, too...

" the future [of psychology] is... chemical..."

Now it would be impolite to have stood up and said "shut the fuck up you scary selfloving Messianic mad mentul case, read Stanton F Peel.. that one sentence in Meaning of Addiction where he says ' but there's just one itzy bity thing in the whole thing i don't get'  ...think for YOUR self... nobody knows ANYthing except it aint about just the bodily....  i quit.."

 which i did and maybe 20ish years later was vindicated when occasionally even if they fight and fight.... one hears " ehh its only about environment.."

And all pills have bad effects  

But the problem is that the likes of GAbor can't talk about turkeys. " if you had a batch of young turkeys  gobbling about in your front room with East Enders on in the corner night and day..or mum and dad playing out the angsty angst of EAst Ender type stuff or even so called 'reality tv' of course a child is going to have a fied brain and go all buddhist kind of compulsively making dumb noises to drown out the pain!!! ..its YOUR fault... yes you too no doubt unless you chucked the tv out 26 years ago as i did.... or rather gave it to the bimbo knowing she would never turn it off anyway.... "

Angsty environments cause all sorts of UNNATURAL  behaviours way way before the stupid smartphone was a thing this is nothing new...

And the prevalence of angsty countenances massively increased by 30 ish years ago DUE only the shit tv.. there is a massive difference between a painted on Londonshire ashram smile and a real one... you don't need compulsory real smiles just a 'natural' occurrence  of angsty brows  - real ones as kids have superb penetrative radar ... maybe  one in 20 with reasonable cause...

WOW exactly how did i miss THAT as a true no-con-classy intellectual of REAL minds and film!!!

unlike the rather one dimensional moaning Pole ..its all about stuff!  well kindof...

Primo's only true equal! .. If This is  am Man even if his simple plain non hystrionic other books about just simple ordinary life as a worker are better

. (i didnt know she was that gyppo-sexy before she put on so much weight in the camps..)

This is a Woman

who could THINK for herself

In a film  whoop whoop rahh rahh

no idea as a commenter said they slipped that one out under the radar 

Which i can guarantee will not contain THE ACTUAL GREATEST PASSAGE ON MENTAL MATTERS, EVER...

Even a stupid grand-a-weekend  workshop addicted  so called new age spiritually conscious of being aware mad one who runs them for 1500 quid once shes got her commissions intoo, couldnt miss except I'm sure they ignored it

"...i noticed.... those of us  intelligence schoolteachers writers thinkers all humble...... the kind that Tyce-Lowe-Farage actually  would, come eighty or ninety years on, to wish to chuck in the ovens,  not actually caring about immos that they are quite happy wash their cars and  clean the ovens below min wage in the kebab shops...    as we waited in '36 ..'37 for the what we knew was inevitable late night knock on the door... papa Stalin's goons.... sometimes we waited weeks, sometimes months or even years... 

"... but there was an extraordinary thing that in the run up period - still at home favourite slippers at night at least some adequate borsch n tear soup  life still bearable....  their whole bodily mind-bodily, health, being, personhood, everything would gradually implode collapse go rancid and they would become shadowy retards of their former selves...waiting for the knock on the door...

 

"yet... when they got to the actually officially worst place in the world, almost ever, maybe except the prisons overseen by sweet Buddhists, or a workshop-retreat in Gweek...

 ("special guest ladies.... here with us  to talk to us all about self forgiveness lives just up the road... THE MORE famous embezzler...Raynor... we can't have her other half and half the crime, Mothy as he would disrupt the 'feminine' energy  but he is here in spirit, too.... The Guradian forgot to include" )

.[.oops wrong photo they look so alike 

Лубянка (pronounced luh-BYAHN-kah)

 or in fact possibly more acurate which means i CARE for your sick minds even if so mean only a nutcase ever put anything in my pisspot..

possibly more circa 1930s?

i havent got time to be really accurate i would like to be

 ]

"when they got  to the place they KNEW they would be beaten to a pulp, smashed in the teeth, starved to death.... no sexy funny stuff as Ruskies arent as warped as other nations we could mention....  but almost every horrid torture  ever devised they knew would await them immediately and likely followed by a one way trip down to the basement...

"if they did survive beyond the first day and if one ever saw them again their backbone was more upright..their eyes brighter even if they were only left with one the other eaten in front of them by the commandant to make his point.... their chins up ..BODILY they were transformed..positively despite all the actual real life 'negativity' ..one couldnt help notice .... they were  mindbodily ...'healthier' ..one could not avoid ..." (paraphrased but accurately)

And therein is THE only thing you ever need to know about ... the mind....

As Taleb got also into her Black Swan...

cliffjumping is a healthy sport, no parachute..

or as i shall explain later  - BEing ..DOing....what next even if hell, is better than choosing  anything

And best mental health, even in hell...  comes from there being no choice..

NOT FINISHED YET NEED MORE BATTERY.......................

MOT FINISHED YET..........................

But no mindless moron (the one in last post from Bayeswater looked just like thgis one doubtless the last one dead by now) can ever think, wow wouldnt it be lovely if EVERY morning for years you 'awaken' thinking sharp as a razor as always and i never needed any of their silly substances ..

or the grape

to come through the worst there is in life 

a true daily joy

especially their ' lean in"

 

******

backwards, now.....

to be

begun

The comedy version.

soon

Now....

 the end of gobbledygook.

Even if ' zen' is unplanned and her " trust" was as usual, the opposite.

Eureka-bingo! smileyface, no ashram smiles involved...

( i just didn"t know they were compulsory in London-away-on-sea, cos the ' buddhist' class in Kew or Bayswater saw through their facade into the oneness within...... and realised maybe it was just as much a con as Buddhist PR the last fifty odd years.......)

"existential" ...

 Now being your L’Étranger , is climbing up the trendy charts, be crystal clear that it is NOT 'existential' even if at last that was admitted to me in person.

In fact one has to say there are simply two states or phases or epochs, the younger person will get all wonky over not knowing what it's about....life... 

But in this weird infantalised society which reset itself long ago in the 90s to only selling crap to younger people, of course it's not allowed to say in phase one you have no idea whatsoever about anything and even Albert didn't really help...

However in the greater part of life - that over and beyond 35, fourty... (dissecting out the under 25s when you havent even reached fully grown life yet -  especially in the brain as the science shows even if Uk has one of the lowest ages of so called 'responsibility' in folklore....).  what on earth is the 'meaning' of life?  

And even if he was a good trier  - worth quoting even, of course Douglas being an ex private schoolboy  could only be rather ADHD (no longer an insult or legal defence or even a  biochemical thing as even Gabor has said he has had enough! and " its not a thing..it was the telly being on from wombtime playing on loop angsty stuff that a human had to learn compensation strategies to tune it out ...or maybe other forms of angst such as parents who no longer knew the rules of not scrapping in front of young Douggy..."   when it came to his meaning of it... fourty two i believe 

Nope, wrong question. 

All 'it' is is something i realised a few months ago I am so so lucky to have no matter what as its nothing one had, it is in fact merely that one knew there was never ever any other choice as to how one must, be....

So yes i always knew the Fromm was a bit limiting

And i admit even if chanced upon maybe age 25ish i have quoted the front page as the pre Tolle  fine place to find the meaning of life upon,  rather often, but couldnt much stomach it past about chapter three or four...

Anyway fiction, as long as not bimbo crap (Amis Mckewan etc etc... bimbo being originally a sex free term applied to the male dandies of QE1's court),  is always far better for you than 'non fiction' which is usually in the longer run more of a fiction

Than fiction.

Anyway the meaning or better put, the ideal state to have discovered, no money, gurus, or self help or others involved...

I can put it in just a few sentences now. Maybe even one if i had more battery.

It isn't even laughing out loud at the bimbo thismorning on Womans Hr, Hannah so famous for being in only rubbish blesser she's innocent of having to think,  who  upon  feeling a bit wonky went and paid for a chunk of 'magical healing' and bingo it worked magically! ... 

reiki/ 'energy' and all that which invaded The Marches, totally colonised the back passage of the Swest decades ago....  

IS the one true way one isn't even allowed to make polite jokes about or even SUGGEST  it may not quite based on anything that can be 'proven' of course the word proof is a megga or it should be Maga aggression so so evil that ...

well another day

magically 'healed' all the way to the looney bin bless err.... (did she sue?)

Anyway the Have or To Be truly contented - absolutely one hundred percent peacefully centred no Tolle required as he knows nothing,  is only possible if one had NO CHOICE of what 

to BE-DO...

Even if it was the most wound inflicting headfuck in history ever

To know for certain there was no conceivable other path to take for 16 years ....

Well all this century i am on the one simplest  straightforward one that truly did succeed when i never really knew i could...

This...once through the Albert's spotty phase is literally all there is to life except the legal  footnote-codicil which basically is that when they grow up they are hardly likely to   piss on your grave or stab you in the eye one xmas dinner saying "bastard....  you attempted to have such a heavy footprint, guzzling up all our planets resources  but failed to achieve true greedy cunt status  and totally destroy it for us......loser....   "

Anyway i have many dozens of little clips from 2009, and back,  loaded up months ago still to check through ( smallest bit of flesh the Ai really does blow a fuse)  

But there is a point...

And all i wish is to make it artistically...

The purpose of art  - yes there is one! being to.....  cause change

Thats impossible nowadays, but at least ehhhh.... one great insight in one day is quite enough for the cheapskates who pile in here  every day...

where i am full time every day, always...

Even if not everything gets here, yet...

voodoo and office work; and sunglasses cause cancer, of the balls, too

I thought this one,  that is but isn't 'absurdist' was up already, but then  all the souls sold out its endless diversion, into nothing, except everything...

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

But it's the way ...

"...Ohh my soul!...."

. ohhh my ohhh my...soul...

(they have nowt to say, ever...)

   

The above are "connected" 

 ooooo we done her but really she only exists in 'The Quest' only one special mind has had access too. 

Anyway back to what matters the words... being they never DID any 'actions'.

right...sat there on my desktop yonks ... time for a clean out, so  ugly.... oops thats not allowed,  but not a very good writer, is, and is  all that matters