so, sunshine...

 as it"s wonderfully warm-wet, 

and you pretty much only get warmish winter

when it"s wettoo

And try living in the actual hills

Without L' Oreal or Rodick's dodgy share cash

no fancy 4wd, over the cliff edge you msy crash

So yes define her " hope"

Amazing THIS one hasn't been put behind their trigger warning nonsense protocols that so far have been more insane and inhuman  than those who sadly will and have taken their own so they no longer are a living human....

new page

at last back slightly on sequence from a month back

 https://www.ralphschism.com/p/dont-ever-end-it-all-but-if-they-do.html

So ....yes .......define her " hope" 

free substack audio

The only "hope" there ever may have been and ever will be is if the atrocious journalism of the last few decades, isn't. And what is a REAL man ...

https://open.substack.com/pub/ralphschism/p/the-only-hope-there-ever-may-have?r=2jdt8a&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=true

BACK..wards ho....

 

she was a work of art in a way she don't understand

(i can if i must get almost anyone to open up just a little, but that's NOT 'me' thats merely for the .... project... twenty dull years ongoing)

(i don't think she knew what 'pacifist' meant - the tragedy of this land, i couldn't care less about that but when asked what HER home village is like and told it's paradise and looking on the ,map later see its actually ON the very busy main road...thats the real tragedy and should be made into real Ai Weiish art : NO good information left anywhere ever...

and you have to look to a yank even if i copyrighted it a decade earlier to say  - oh yes that was the awful Grayson one too

Lionel Shriver "..compulsory .. 'kindness' became your true tyranny.."

she should know knowing what "have a nice day " does in her homeland of Columbine,  being the chronicler of even Mr good writer of the artful fake orgasm 

got shot by his own

Anyway Lionel!

for Queen

 

https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/m0029hcp

i don't charm ever or confect fake niceness

as its not nice

nor is false compliment

so i don't have any local buddies 

not that i care as i'm only on full time writing or ranting duty for some weeks now soon to be gradually rfevealed

.... of course they can't know - noisy places or a life full of fake 'friends' the other default down here...means you have NO  space or quietitude to ever think about reality, never mind develop true creativity... as London proved over decades....and all the dire art down here - i was just being polite before suggesting there were two that were moving well they did but you also have to be a "human" and have manners,  or it takes from it......sorry art is TOTAL.... .. ...except.... )

ahh yes...at last a GROWN up REAL artist who paints proper question-demandin' proper paintin'

got me right het up!

so before getting here and now to the very last few hundred bits of philosophy 

i can END the other one 

 https://www.simonclayton2020.com/2026/02/art.html

that's as close as i have got to Totnes-twinned-with-Narnia and that's close enough

I'm not quite bored enough yet

And anyway can't even find a security woman to go with me and protect me, from saying ANYthing to any of them...

as it would just be a waste of time, i know what the Soma is was and will always be

fatal.

now i have hundreds of mere 'sketches' for installations or even someone else to multi media paint 

there being more art in her little manipulated and coerced finger than every artist ive seen in the SW put together

right dead ones...next (already in my can some weeks and now loaded here)

maybe later... so so lost the flow if i meet a vaguely groovy one

Actually this is a much neater way of doing it all ...

Using unindexed side 'pages' ...

As i really do have quite a few superfans who the moment i put a new introductory chapter as i haven't even began the MEAT of it all.. so many years ongoing...

you pile in for more cheapskate freebies... ( excepting the fine three) 

 and often i have to work several pages at once crosslinking etc merely to keep some flow never to push my 'discovery' as i don't have spare battery ever so thats only up to you and i bet you are too mean to ever bother linking any of my material anywhere else (and i have suspicion there are some botts at work on substack - for THEIR benefit only 'liking' my material there so i may subscribe to THEIR paid for content somewhere down the line i would never do anyway as i have yet to find ANY content ever online worth paying for ever.... maybe i should make them pay ... but then i would be being SAm HArris top intellectual Yank who spent 3 years saying all will be FOREVER free..until a year ago he changed his... philosophical statement and built a cage for his rubbish words you can't get into unless you..pay....me never ever ever)

anyway this way as a pice may take an hour to build the obsessives dont just get a half finished version they doubtless dont come back to later when it is finished...

this way i can create all in one with links and THEN publish

even if its just first draft for now hahh hahhh

really gory one here thats also about REAL "FREEDOM" 

https://www.ralphschism.com/p/history-is-almost-all-wrong.html

but there's also in the pipeline the exact opposite been there a month....time now

Ive been a very unfree boy as i am loyal i don't know why to ...what i know not what but i am

"Tomorrow is another day"

NOT ready til 11ish...

All that matters is at dawn being so together

and i know theres another that says not ready til about 19ish wasit and i havent even finished that yet despite being FULL time on this for several days for thine infotainment

as i know NOTHING else tainments you...all..... the misery and stooped shoulders all over...

someone knew me lastersum..... knowns mine are never stooped....  despite even her

so the sequence i still havent found it.... most beautiful and METAPHORICAL nature thing ive seen for years

(i asked the pukkayummy if the children of today understand (i.e. their thick mummies - obviously not her as she had bred with a Romanian)  that Watership Down was a metaphor for the cunts who suck up to Kings and Queens  and shabby princesses too,  so as to go doing Apocalypse's on poor bunnies just for their  entertainment - fact

And she didnt understand my question.... yes the one dimensionality truly is all over, even in the head of those who once lived in three d and knew ANYone but a British dad'll do.... 

Ahhahh..yes ...that day....  the enjoyment - FULL THINGS.... despite the sourest Christian one could ever meet...and be very nice to, 

too... 

both us two

Now... THE WOUND, cont (LOADS more uploaded last few days  however it seems the AI is only being used to look at your homevideos and perv over ANY barechest now.... not knowing the great parenting was to have your klid out barechested innit 

such that good stats say you CAN smoke and as long as you get loadsa UV IR and not from Princess Di's absurd expensive bedroom conversion into a 'redlight' therapy chamber ... there's a  double entendre in THAT that's worth a whole book!

and have no greater risk of cancer than someone not smoking who has the average YUK factor 10 avoidance of it all....

https://asilpyg.substack.com/p/sunshine

yes so now the AI has decided that all homevids of a kid without brests age  6 or 7 are now against its 'community guidelines' ... which if you know America the country where its illegal to sunbathe tits out ion your own back garden in a fair few states, goes along with why they are all mad - i.e. the only reason you may ber showcasing to make a point, a youngster topless is if you are a perv as they know you will be as they all are...  which is of course why they cant stop going on about someone who probably wasnt and arranged airfares for quite willing tourists to Buck Pal....

anyway i have no interest in anyone who isn't really guilty - most parents, who never got their kids out at even our once fabulous  Warren (at Hay) riverbeach...

anyway so i have been full time as there are so many bits to add in and there was a big one made just after the last rather sublime Christlemas. ....  on the big one

At last i got back to it...

But my my its hard...

Especially as a few hours in a British library ONLY there for you meanies (notwithstanding now three "investment" angels proving just how mean 99% still are )  

ALL oner hears top of their voices is poor people - mainly men, who have been SO DISempowered by all the language of "empower" such that all they can do is sit and moan for hours to some lanyard clad paid friend about their minor unjust police actions against them and how it affects job applications and tannancies ...  and she  - it always is, laps it up - as that makes HER seem so plenishy nice,  and never suggests DOing anything to redress the balance...

Anyway a whole book on all that one day i have SO much material over a decade it;'s daft good for me

However its the real source of the only real problem all i really care about knowing no hope raising a sane child in YUK...

Of course the nearer you get to the true Source the more Nutzi the language gets, as one saw twenty years ago when Phoebe was handmade shoeleathered in to Hay, from hereabouts..

to wreck the so fragile then environmental work

And con the people they have 'community' when my god even i who NEVER EVER complain has had enough of crappy COOP rejects that any sane society should have rejected a decade back

ADD IN VIDEOS LATER

so yes wounds the truly woundy lot...i am so glad i knew 25 years ago i live ina  land where even the well off enough South EAstern blokes (rather ex BNP as i would describe him - only cos there wasnt any need for BNP in talgarth as no brownies allowed, by bullyboy decree) could only prove their false love  - neurosis infact, by making false allegations....  

so all of a decade every hour or so a confirmatory film clip i have millions..

but then...a perfect silver lining...even the subject she knew it was worth us chronicling how WE get it 'right'....

Despite the true TRAGEDY 

 which is the only half decent woman i knew for years infact maybe ever here in this lost land

screams " well YOU clearly are such a loser nobody likes you and YOU need some friends.." is perverted by her Eckhart and Hatesville lingo and wouldnt understand THE huge and massively successful operation over a decade to have in fact  TOO MANY friends... every single one of many dozen,  for the daughter not one of them for me.. but i got to be Pied Piper genius at allaying any parental fear and it always worked...

as yes a child does need a village no matter what a dull tedious never ending exhausting job it was to run THEIR kids up to our zoo in the hills most of their parents too busy figuring the cheapest way of getting  the bus back to Glastonbury for their ... spiritual therapies...

quicker than figuring them all for kiddy brests...

i wonder if their 'AI' likes young boys barechests so lets them go public or just keeps them for itself, too....

(until i 'appeal' of course yet more technoaggro) 

 https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1bKct7JcGRkvad2F6b3Vn4470-W3sZRRS?usp=sharing

wow 358 million who haven't heard the Totty talk that "we" are all so so self  individuated we dont ever need anyone ever to even chop our logs when the back goes.... and that emotional blackmail is the best form of begging bowls ...

But they have to be pukka...

Even if a real man spits at the donor knowing they must have extremely empty lives to put anything in my hat so as to allay their guilt at likely even running away from the fruits of their loins...

But back in the day...meanderin' in the van .... of course when your chief male ferrit is called Leon always

A certain band got much foreplay ... not by me  - i taught a kid to REALLY be her own person, always...

Maybe a bit to far...

But just a smallest diversion back in time

first

as...well i know full well it only gets worse and worse....I am attuned to it... many years

And its NOT just the 'devices' 

 https://www.ralphschism.com/p/the-way-you-britolin-addicts-bring-your.html

And the lanyardists' " nudge" .. unit even Blair got bored of, or was it Cameron...  knew it didnt work

But all lanyardists can do is sweetly nudge nudge nudge   

- funny how it rhymes with fudge

as its so much easier than telling  parents to really DO something.... at which  they may spit... that's really earning your overpriced paid friendship

ALL UNFINISHED NOT EVEN FIRST DRAFT AND BACK TO BRUTAL GEOPOLITICS FIRST 

COOP and the lanyardy '3rd sector' as dodgy as poor Peter the Gay Lord

 ahahh but i have a solution i don't rant until i am bored with the allies not being very ally.. having been given a few weeks

hers is a nice one

right now i have hundreds infact thousands of examples of their abundant nonwords...

all marketed to the female of the species  - if i were a female (which acording to proper biology Heather Heyling et all i am about 95%  -  systems wise, which is all we is,  and vice a averse one) i would be so angry at the way all the others sell everything to me as if i was a two year old... really disgusted  - indeed almost violent and want to get slashing it all with my talons...)  and so so often using bee signage signposting how utterly perfect worker and sweetsmelling honeyed and natural they all are despite never ever ever going and even having a word with the Nutzi Trust who quite blatantly for 6 weeks are using Roundup Professional in about the only slightly natural part of Pastyshire left around Kurt's Cot valley....

too busy Beeing 'abundant' one can only guess

even if have done the full research, Georgey style..(under their hems, upskirtin with a very bright sunshine disinfectant  torch) .all the way....  

free if you are canny

30p per nana Co op or whatever the Coop lyingly calls itself 

3 coop nanas SMALLER than Lidl = 90p

lidl

today 

i would never do inaccurate jounalising not being bang on point in the moment now...3 lidl nanas =45p ..ok maybe 47 if one is a pedant

right with the bee stuff not that there are any left n(almost actual scientific fact)  as all they do is pump loadsa xenobiotics  out into the whole pestilent peninsula is almost a Segway into only summertime stuff..

soon

 better had ive never known such an only miserable load of fairly well off people all over everywhere...just cos its a bit cloudy

And there's no point saying or writing anything as 99% wouldn't even get ioty that Coop  - the truth of them and their conartist 'outreach' employees is a superb 'vehicle' for a country a that..  

well there was i 1997 ...in a former sov country listening to the World Service as Blair got in....  and shed a tear of joyous abundant relief...

And what really did we really get....something more weirdly Sov than the sovs... who wouldnt have been seen dead spending the extorted cash on some osteopath* for the boyfriend...

They would have realised that osteopathy is a decadent Western construct as fraudulent as homeopathy for dogs....  constructed on Western neurosis and magycing everyone's cash out of each other for made up complaint when a day choppin some fair maiden's logs sorts out ALL ills.. for real

And spent it on a new Lada instead a real mans car....

(* i have just spent 15 years explaining to the Mormon from hay-on-Wye still dazzled by the con, even if my only vaguely sane male communicant " this is how it works Greg.... from Maggie's  time  i know as i would go whorin' over in Yankland until i discovered even their whores were less actually sexual or actually liking it despite their smiles than a dead zombie from Cormac's Road would be .... and the planes back n forth were crammed full of probably at least half the MPs took long summer breaks  in new England or wherever and they wouldnt come home with an actual bag of cash or swiss bank numbers the yanks are cleverer than that as they know the CIA knows almost everything in real time so they arrange for perhaps said MP's daughter only 5 at the time to have a time share all to herself for a year when she's having her year out at Harvard or wherever a decade or more later down the line....  and shes told it doesnt matter if she forgets to return the key..... "... will he listen NOW and book his return ferry.... ?!)

(god they are SO SO needy)

 Here i am deliberately at a very remote atch... no houses or vehicles for some distance...

sat in the average temperatures, door open headtorch on obviously here...

And some performative dogwalker comes along performiing LOOK at my pair of flouncy two granders no doubt...

But it's the way  when the stupid caged animals (which is what a lead is)  decide to sniff at something just by my snail shell so mister walker has to allow them to smell and smell and smell right next to someone who obviously comes exactly here to be as far away from all these utter lost needy ALWAYS ILL wankers .... but then thats almost the whole SWEstershire its not surprising their seas and waters are full of MRSA and all they can all do every single one except Ms 0.001% speak of being ...ILL

Anyway back on course as i have been all day putting up with the loudest gobbiest loudmouth librarian I have ever experienced...and all the " ive got OCD inmates" 

But theres a lot to start rolling out, all deliberately up in The Tube awaiting the right moment to ponder captions and philosophical things to add in far wiser than the childless rather effete Henry.... ohh yes that was the name of today's main kid... he could have heard in a  whisper too..

That's a point ...(the Henry was deliberately useless audio we get to how Europeans dont sue for pavement toestubs or in fact anything much...unlike every Yank and YUK.... whoever was in charge of Remain the usual one dimensional spastic never told you that did eeee... errata had he well i guess it would have been 99:1....  for being yank. 

That's why your kids are even mpore fucked up than thems as pretending one is above being yank is even more illmaking...i know i encounter the illmakers endlessly with that ashram glaze in their eyes....

never ever able to even ponder constructively  crits around their own little bubble of perfect Narniac space, maybe not quite so Wonderland as the brochures told them

Anyway ... at least three live performances all albums bought .... and it turns out she died young of being EXTREMELY bitter psychospiritually about everything, especially her real fuckup dad....  she never got over even into her 60s... every smallest sweet NAnci sing 'n smile...

fake

I'm sure they have trades description acts in that Youesaay...  and one could say something else about the queues lining up outside the courts regarding one very very dead sad old man... just as he may have a bit more in his bank than the surely now Shabbiest Princess... in all of history..

It's pure poetry

 

Anyway now...

there is something which goes with this new page (just where i put some sort of sideshows)

https://www.ralphschism.com/p/cest-un-spectacle.html as i say almost all from now on super summery super sunshine stuff

And ...things....

so yes a thing that goes in that page ...that really is the ONE thing above all  - lived experience so often... that sums up not just the ignorance but the complete and utter insouciance in every single person i have ever met for at least ten years (i guess except her - but that's a hard one she had a lot to get off the chest too...that's what loneliness does you when your only friend is Eckhart) 

But it's so poignant it needs a short handwritten thing symbolising.... that even that so lomng endured thing.... didnt make my handwriting shaky when in fact what one should have done is jab the pen in their eyes or gobs .... 

Tomorrow

So such a  desktop acetic clearout time...

Time to even put this away

Not taken by me

There can be no more poignant a pic

It will be in book 9 chapter  25 or so

with why

Living "deliberately" a bit more deliberately than Henry at Walden. Hard to deliberately describe.

 TO DO NOT READY TIL 1100

Now this is hard hence the waffle starts as really hard work. Hard enough to attempt to begin and very hard  if you are nuts enough to listen ....however I think an hour in it revs up to what it's really all about...

free substack audio and i do get 'likes' from serious  book sites it seems ..i dont have battery time to browse their output but they find the time for me 

always free

so you may be missing out somewhat ...  

Living "deliberately" a bit more deliberately than Henry at Walden. Hard to deliberately describe. See notes below

https://open.substack.com/pub/ralphschism/p/living-deliberately-a-bit-more-deliberately?r=2jdt8a&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=true

all is sort of still referring back to 

library file 10

https://drive.google.com/file/d/19mFaq9Esv_zUma5XBHQur14-OMutL79d/view?usp=drive_link

Now, wintering

 I didn"t know 

difficult times

of course...  what with their relentless

 " in times like these.." 

And " we've never been so ...divided..."

It"s time to get a bit sunny.

And show em... difficult times which if you paid attention to a few of the simpler oldschool gurus who wouldn't be seen dead In a guru costume, or paid for their sagely advice, aren"t difficult in that once you know the purpose you plod on no matter what and in the nonsummer periods plan your day around DOing time and mould away time zenmeditaviley watching drops drip

and not making the smallest bit of difficult difference to one jot of your day.... as long as one is organised and has endless fixing to do WHEN the energy is supreme...

And it's even better if one has spent all morning preparing the next phase, which was only ever a continuation of the last phase as one didnt need any new phases three decades ago knowing exactly what's what and what matters... and how to continue it no matter what alleged ,'difficulty'.

My only d word too much to enjoy spinning up into the air  and smash holy cows before spinning them like plates over the head of dome clown who cannot ever look into the eyes of the kids she's paid to smile sweetly at....

Unlike the ones i sought out twenty years ago...who still could.

My chronicle even then collected like A Lomax on a truly historical mission to catch them before they all shattered into unfixable shards of litter

And i know it would never be possible to smash through the modern moaning just because domeone is daft enough to go hiking on a forecast rainy day and not taken off Monday  instead due " long corvid..." they'll be claiming forever..

Anyway the most productive inside day for many a month. So do come back now i am bloody well obligated as some suckers have at last paid up ... 

Now.... i am so organised only very rarely is there a technical 'difficulty' and i KNEW something was going wrong but...

didn't want to be distracted

Not revving up as all or at least 99% of  material is 100% spontaneous..

And i don't think YET it is possible to make out the words...

 

Regarding this really quite  homo aftyernoon radio play listening to whilst meandering up into the hills...

Bacon in Moscow

How Francis Bacon became the first major Western artist to have a solo exhibition in the Soviet Union. Written by Stephen Wakelam, based on the memoir by James Birch.

https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/m001v1mt

and if anyone can guess the content before i get them out of the recorder if it was on which will take yonks they can have all the £185 monies paid in to ralphschism.com the last few weeks....  just to show up the rest as such meanies its daft... 

but theyll have to email or text i never read comments couldnt care less what conspiracy may be ongoing or fishing expeditions

i know whats what and  strangely enough and of course v philosophical almost all i knew for sure for years but little true lived experience of theories confirmed by experimental evidence; it keeps coming out exactly as predicted...

 I mean even Henry the not-really-woodlander yank figured a lot of it long ago..

And i know as a result this afternoon's play wont be anything like as good indeed as usual when they know they have the ultimate smug natureman to so easily roll out to you, they'll make it Dysney

The one earlier today is the one you REALLY need to understand... which is all ive been about for 20 years

hypophilia*...oops nope cant have that ...

as the weirdo dull little men whom wish to measure it as they never met the pukka Rosie under a hay rick....or arranged it with her into a nice bed, or see through net..... of real grub..... 

Is the ultimate in arousal no matter what and enemy of all their big words nobody could ever keep track of i mean what the ferks sexuoerotic .... ?

*A state of sexuoerotic disinterest; impaired or deficient in sexual and genital responsiveness or frequenc

So yes these very lacking chappies with their 2020 or was it the nexterspring rather funky hymn  but it's so so towny....

And in towns you can't smell the hay on her.... or ... Christmas thistereve last one ever about as good as it gets.... I scrutinised their faces.... 

And was full of certainty

But anyway back to the beginning ...

I mean Ed  was fine ..i bought his books and filtered out the towny neuroticism...

and he clearly had a sense of humour too...

Even if his books on "lateral thinking" over time about as useful as a fancy hat in Hatesville

As they all get it wrong... fashion is all there is and it trumps any attempt at lateral sanity

But then

all that happened thirty dully years

t'will have to be  hypocriphilia - Edward would never know and the gallery of rogues wouldnt even be able to imagine...

Nor would he know i get a pro  Bono boner from their  hypocrisy 

and 100% tyranny..

of only ever meemeemee

but it's the hypocrisy, love of it,

 that's the one and only solar fuel that is sustainable no matter what.

Now as oft said even if nobody reads a word even the most energy hayrickfuelled email in history ever....

(and i know neither drink so it'll have to be the other form of intoxicant....  tickbox, done)

so yes they all Them Sourcies started with him... the Jenny came latelies..

so called 'philosopher' not good enough for him to just stay in his posh part of London neurotix garret but no gotta become all telly vangelic only because there's nothing in any way 'offensive' about him, not even a hair so neurotic they have to be surgically removed ... like having anything to say that's not in any way offensive (especially on stuff like fuckin under hayricks; so talk about prejudiced little bald git, and leaving out 99% of the history of humanity since it started to grow its own grub...)

now this is far far more interesting than the  mere casual browser may think.... 
i shall return to later if the retitling it for here works

And i do hope That Bush still noses in well here's a double dose i hope you get iller...

 

As only after  at least a few months  in the real abyss do we start to emerge sane... all three above should do it...

plus her bloke...... whom of course will be supping the BBC free coffee as we spoke... thistermorn

Which was a perfect ending of the lesson - all they all ever wanted was to get their slot on 4chan one way or another

(as is also the history of the whole 'environmental' movement along the river Wye and even her Teme.... for twenty hypo filled years.. but its not nice giving it a greek sounding hype word when the lot of em were only ever an insult to the fine real thing

)

ohh...now i know what fancynewword i am

 

thistermorn

more ralphschim.com exclusives

because there is always a silver lining in that really good camera unusuable died dead.... means i have to use the shitty one and at least i can get a file off it and then actually SEE if it is the right one the good one stopped letting me do so why ..last 'summering' takes so so long

However unlike inhuman made up words like transhumant, (i think it is a tenner) when i am a nomad all my life in every single way possible  - and even really did do transhumant things with my flock of sheep as a commoner on the high hills shepherding them around to places where tourists wouldnt see transumant things being done...errata no tourists in them hills so one could do a whole flock of transhumant nomadic pasturalist things and no one but them would care...

 except ALL so called innate things must be immediately stopped 199% when one has a child to be human with 100% all the time from birth (she agreed nobody can do anymore)

And only then when every last agonising 0.00000000001% of time twenty xeven years on, is given to them, only.... is one free to 

...to what?  At last i am done in for words.... as whilst  everyone else is pretending not to be plasticbagging their own inner head.... 

I have never had such a sublime perfect territory, AND full on saudade

in one day

And i knew i should ignore someone... 

But now i know i was wrong.

Anyway far more important if one were to wish to roll out some slightly more proper writerly writing..

As i am quite sure even whatsisface that wriote the first one ..Gilgamesh... i wouldnt bother a tad too taking itself too seriously...

not only do i have in the nosebag a ten times better tale of epicness ... 

But at last am sure, exactly...not mainly, but perfectly

Who it would be...for

And the word perfect is there for a three dimensional reason it would take ten volumes of Proust to just maybe sum her up...

figuratively wrong word allegorically still wrong...  just perfectly.

The really sad thing though is so many ...errata a few okish ones... still don't can't understand that constructive critique is healthy and what the fact that they didn't buy their little palaces in downtown Plymouth (i.e. "its full of junkies and more clap that Bill Gates may have got in this operating system and the other posher one for rich private schooled tossers")  and chose thisterregion based on cosntructive critique but if one constructively critiques here of course by default its " why are you here then ..?!?" 

well one may be stranded due non payment of verbal contracteds ..or other reasons ...or just know the walks everywhere else are more noisy...

to be cont

if i recover from saudade

and saudade is not a word you throw around to make yourself seem good in prep for a workshop...

sauade is the only thing there is between life, and death:

life itself

and what everyone else is dying from and caused to look very old from, not living it, as they believe their perfected version is the pinacle 

If you just persist a little...and dont believe your own constructive critique...

Or at least on the third occasion..

oops forgot the I'm-No-Nige punchline

 " .... we know there's only rams and ewes

 when it comes down to actual animalistic reality but its a free world and if the small farm's owned by a couple of blokes

one hopes

hetoo will know that long run

 when is other arf  breaks breaks his ankle slippin' on his  handed-out-like-sweets

dropped in the dirt 

hillrunning medal just for finishing

their ewes will starve too unless their 2ish percent minority means what it says

til his death do them part... snow mud floods or not

especially as the dykes are so badly constructed round ear..

even if the data is 7 years max for blokes pledgin' troth at Lorna's altar

and one year shorter

for the other sex fairer and supposedly better at 'team work'

all besrk.... "

Anyway farmin lasses sadly are so 'overwhelmed' by it all...all of it

even upon underwhelmin hillocks

where them Londoners wanty to outlaw very humane removal of boyrams

bollocks

by little rubber ring

so as to keep clean,

 some made up faeries big stone ring

or myth

But that makes it sound like I am animal brutalist

You dont get to be supreme ferret champs by not knowing every emotion and feeling never mind goodness the real sort

handed out even if dirt poor

of your flesh eating  real animals

as intelligent as all human animals ive ever known.

Laughing in your face if you try and train them to anything

but their own pace

 

Anyway thats another p;arable or ten

All i know is what a dire silly film

all 'production values' and nothing to say

 "biggest ever bucket of BAFTA noms.."

well i would be up in arms if i were one of the free thinking

couple of percent of homos 

(five plus years or two

" me to Maveric brown man me on my JOBS he on his

" ehh todays 4 chan smartbuilder company content 75% homo, and only 30 othercoloured 

frig if i were you i would write in in a big tiz!"

Is this the turning of the tides after decades of disproportionality

(why UK has lower babebirthingrate than ever wonky USA ?)

A whole 2 1/2 hrs of dull BAFTA heavy  cinematic extravaganza

not even the GOOD blues and slave musac as soundtrack

(i know far fer better - later if i find her she's deep deep in the woodpile,

 of rubbish  unsoulful blues even Alan Lomax piles atop her

but i will)

2 1/2 hrs of brown peeps and even the worst ever illiterate 'vehicle'

flesh eating vampires 

Indeed an INSULT to the plight of Jim Crowes victims

if you ask me

But ... a whole 2 1/2 hrs not one single same-sex 

utterance 

or compulsory

 rewriting of history

I think they or 'them' or Kate Tempest should go on a very very binary strike

"prejudiced bastards get on yer BIKE

prizeless and go and do  mid level crossbar fully all inc

 rewrite!"

 

Is this the end of peak unfairness to the 6.1 and 7.1 year minority who prove

butterfly bonkin just to allay   passin

boredom is ...past its peak!?
right can we have our fuckin culture back please...

Dirk Bogarde was not only a great actor  actor from whom we learned as his so called sexuality was merely aside

show;  not just who he maybe 

He also wrote superb books that were best sellers

on wise philosophical who knows why..

and he never even told us if he and the Frog babe his next door neighbour

may have been a little more than rural essential allies and..then just good or more than

friends 

and thus our imagination was piqued

With literary real brilliance

no need to be told whom caused any movement in his pants

As thats for..... only ...

to be cont

Indeed....walkin' her plank....

 running at it

FULL "bodily" every sinew preplanned for the approach doing REAL work unlike silly childmen climbing big buildings for clicks ...

has to be choreographed even more prefic than  the world tango fake championships 

 

as one slip and...

as i said to the propper lass ...from Lorna's homelands.... 

" government grants come and go....

if his highland acres are to work longterm....

when he twists his ankle if not as perfect hilldancer 

trippin the light fantastic over every rock 'n

mudpuddle never ever even a slip never mind toe stubbed

good a dancer as me

he'll have to rely on you" 

Now Ralph 'exclusive'

 Even if all clips only for philosophical reasons and i aint even started yet ... that shall (correct use of a word the 'dyslexix can learn,  even if takes 40 years for em to grow up and rewire their own brain no tolls needed except just DOin it)  - meanin' it WILL happen.... over the next glorious decade

As its so much fun to go back now i know all the reasons

....even she Mrs MOO merely full of illusion

And all clips (unless the very few baddies taking public money over long periods of time in their big con whom  never even said quietly in the woodshed " im just a shabby conartist like all the rest of us who invaded 

and pretended.. 

but at least i shall give some of my extremely well public funded - i mean Queen of the rip, 

 'ABUNDANT' vegetables from my HEATED!! walled ancient garden .....

to the poor stood outside COOPlityerally starving as could be seen from their man faces....

 that xmas eve 2018ish you saw Simon ok.... .

 but only if you continue rubbin me there .... yes!!!! THAT way  "   

had she said so one could have been 'bought'...but only if Newport Jen had admitted her true Queen conliness... 

the rest a fringe benefit...or had the email even been acknowledged ...well that would be a free pass not to be even slightly hinted at whom....

they all had their chances ...

to be whom their FAkebook said or rather marketed themselves as

ARE

But all innocents the camera is angled to never even hint what county, within

And merely part of my long dull lifetime philopsophy

to do

next soon

as one is basking for several days in the total warm plensishment

at a whole day of full body 

ultra deft every foothold a matter of life or guaranteed eath

or sprained summit

doin the job

ANF diuel purp

every singleone must be saved and a little later she fluttered her way off BYE BYE

errata if human ehh whats the word for allegory, mustv been one of em non 'binaries' or  a rare one  as  no men ever keep to their word and just butterfly off, and only 1% of the babes are worth saving,  before also butterflyin' to the next, what exactly i never do know?

 yesters if not date time stamped

i'm not THAT much of a perfectionista 

meaning ...three years ago almost to the day i must check for all the super sticious numbties..

And me..i sometimes like to mark a date, overdue, due..or symbolic

only as there's nothing else to do as none of em ever even believe their 'fates'... or even 'coincidences'...

" i've got a right, right.."

 

Now all i know is that i told the teacher woman, a definitely right word for her super sexy gait and the truly most beautiful thing there is - you cannot buy filigree lines emanating from eyeballs which seem to be a bit honest and truthful..

I first stopped dead in my seat sawing them December 2012.

(false alarm we would discover a few years later oops the year of 2020 "oh lord even HER!!" sat outside  Horrorford cathedral on her device so stressing out ... and she was a so called 'steiner' school were are the zenned peeps, teacher "sorry i can't talk now I'm in a crisis in here" the one and only woman  better call her a  girl stuck in her horrid decices showing off she was stuck in her horrid device when the whole point of that love was to sit across from her at the cafe and celebrate we both had very basic same-steam-driven-model Nokias ...)

Now... there may well be nothing better than hearing " gosh you are siklled" upon seeing my truly fabulous balance walking - neigh running... (going WITH ther flow of the hill and the wright )  with the weight of my heavy load -  her plank..

yesters

But really all that matters is yes i told that teacherwoman  near twomonths ago the truth

But why... why say as i said " nope i wouldnt now want one.."

Except as a fascist bodyophobe so many years from the fine sport the only one i have ebver engaged in, of people watching  to pass the time in dusty hinterland smalltown squares in midspain, ye olde Portugal  - still the one last bastion of some sanity as long as its the top half away from the bottom half infected by the "English ("to see... " how obsessed they are that even a stray pubic hair isnt showing through their bottom half and all the rest) 

The most interesting thing of all about The Source lands apart from even HE seemingly is an illusionista...  which beggars belief unless he died after my last roundup simple todo list email...

Is the gait. Plus posture. To sit and what is life if full of care..... thistermorn one of many just waiting for the laptop to warm up so as to harvest every loose joule of energy, slowly and surely more haste less speed dont waste a loose electron ...

And across the car park there is the best ever example of the local species as per lasterregion but i didnt understand...

why my 2020 best new real 'friend' and companera... and almost coparent of hers...  they getting so much of metoo, only for them...  could not keep to her pact...

And a farmers wifetoo (even if due PC reasons i always say equitability farmer person - truly"! and she would laugh at least..knowing who wore the trousers or in her case sexy leotards in her kitchen...  )  even if with a several grand  personalised numberplate MOO...

But i didnt understand how ... her "yea" meant....nothing

Until observing fully all the sybarite downsizers who once were some "human resources development systems engineer" in other words fuckin office worker, i know you unlike me will betoo

when they crawl up the slimey ladder eventually making enough cash via Thatchers home rip off economy if they win that game of roulette and cash out on top...

Ended up in regions indeed 99% of all of Dooneshire, saying, speaking, of their lovely plenished rural existence  - and they have far better uniforms  - literally every patch, perfect, especially if they got off ebay a new one of  those little Maoist cloth green handbag bags you saw as default at Portobello market 40 years ago... 

Image 100% - every smallest item must fit in exactly with the image that says  especially if bloke " i am a rustic perfect zenny calm and truly naycher plenished man who has done ALL my 'soul' 'work'.. got over mummies drugs [Bard phrase]     been at mens circles in the hills only drinking three bottled beers [the day the world went crass] ... and beating my chest whist crying when i really just want to cry about how much some Charles Eisenstein type selling 'personal development' courses from his Gweek whoresboat  infact was a pyramid scheme i ended up mortgaging mummy' horsebox to pay for and i cant go to the fuzz and report the fraud as they'll giggle at metoo.... "

But it's their gait... I mean here you are (ONLY occasionally now having realised Utterly no point) at 'Gateway' drug to going up on the very underwhelming Moor to perform I am Indiana Jones too,  (NOT ME i wear the same clothes all day day in and out for meditation in van atnight  very long 'adventures' by foot up and down dale, work in the day )

..... In the number one ..well imagine the sales brochures ( i hear there's a rather a lot of nimbyism at the next tranche of shitpipes being developed around the less people-watchin-fun carpark....  " come and realise your deams of a qiuietr naycher abundantly plenished rural dream quiiet life and slow down youve earned it all those years as  privateer rippin off the taxman  through your suposed consultancy to the Nutzi Health service or Monsanto, same thing...now at last you can breathe... I did it..."

and  - well him thistermorn, all togged up to look like he is a perfect sweet little market gardener even if a rich version who can afford those absurd 50 quid 'workman's trousers tailored and a pocket on every kneepatch and small ones for your tweezers if a splinter gets through your  health and safety protective kneepatches, and threatens immediate death by said splinter...  off to scythe a little patch of brambles or even  dandelions for his morning coffee...

BUt they all hurry....superfast they strut and powermarch  as if in the opening of the what was it Six Million Dollar Bloke ...through town and byeway... even moreso if female

and oif course as soon as they go for a li'l old jog theyve got to strap on the lastest micro heart and ...i was going to write 'soul' monitor...but that would be a tautological impossiblility...as you can only glimpse it if you have so slowed down its daft

HOW!!! ever... there is a philosophical matter to deal with being yes slow steady BUT as i said yesters" no its not strength.. [ when faced witha  massive amount of wood to move over very very obstacle course land]  its far far more the dance or yoga to a factor of 10 .... as every smallest step at least ten in the future must be pondered swiftly for angle mudslide factor and most important of all time and motion....   or one never will get any JOB done.... as for 30 years none of em ever helped i win i had 30 years of free yoga/pilots and mindful ballet dancin tango classes for free... all on a tightrope"

AGGHH YES REMINDS ME all i care about is my image and it was so sad when even JP a few years ago goes 'conspiracy theory' and even Orangemanist ....  as he had such a  goods start being above all 'politics' but at the same time sharing the only 'politics' we needed  - parodying the neurotix with such skill....

But i am (in substack audios) above ALL silly modern politics as all modern politics especially if Green is based on being a phobe... and even if for a few weeks of youth was part of the gentry i knew even age 12 or 13  that  a greart divide or difference top and bottom means in fact many of the toplot die far too young also....so communitarianism is good..

except bnone of the aforementioned even European yoiunger men so called intellectuals have the first idea about how impossible any of that has been for 15+ years as the ones who go around bleating "community" are the worst Thatcherites of all merely spinning something they may entrepenuer their way into making a tax loss on

so they claim the vat back on the range rover bought with Mummy's L'Oreals...

Anyway ... 

Philosophy.

Now for some years the exact opposite of a nihilist as i believe there is something worth remaining alive for  even if one cannot ever know for sure even what

But then once you have spent a whole adult lifetime peepwatchin (no more its bad for you they are 99% so so nervy and projecting... they know not what but i bet they stay up putting it on their FAkebook) ...and AND! are a philosopher more aside ..and above... than even SAint Ex was...

In short before maybe 50 or before you realise every word coming out of every gob here is false.... 

be diligent and methodical and do ones annual (self employed but never ever above the tax threshold or you are just paying into the Jen Oh Cider fund and i mean from Gulf War 1 which if you were a spotty Iraqi teen conscripted to be cannon fodder or else - "run away and we pull out your mummies toenails and make her eat them without garnish!" so as the fine British Military could turkey shoot many thousands whilst retreating from Kuwait up a road theres no way of tricking anyone you are runing away as its the only narrow road upon a whole rather open desrt so no double crossin... thats if you ask me against the 'international laws' which should be simplified on day 1 of Gaza or any other such  as " against the Geneva Convention" [ too starve civilian Gazzans as  them fine Israelis announced they would do on Oct 8th a fgew years ago ...and this writing was correct  that day stated if you care about PAllies protest ONLY for one thing: they be helped to leave.. cos theyve addit GC breached day 1 and no gov said " sanctioned if you do" thats the day 70 or maybe 100 thou died..persiod....

walk away... we will give you jobs cleanin our bogs if you are lucky even if at some island  we have 'protectorate' over still like the CAymans and that way no vat on you either .....  as they are now doing today i believe ] ] ) 

so.... in short not for fiscal reasons but for theres no point e er trusting anyone here for 5 years known reasons

ALWAYS .... this year one of those Blue Peter "and here is one we prepared earlier" ... fakes but all the other last 5 years in fact probab;ly 10.... past fifty OR knowing all tyoung people are so useless ruined by p;arents to not even KNOW a fair deal..... leave your tax return until the very last second   - 14 hrs from now) before wasting one second on it ...

AND dont bother to even read the questions ...

(in 'more info'

HACKERS - if you go REALLY slow you may find data to hack and even pervert nothin innit though ever, i won you wasted your time furthermore you're only unparented lost kids... google frank Abnigail his Google talk he was chief lostchild cleverdick lost kid and..grew up...superman! hack your useless mum n dads bank account first - as if they had parented your proper you wouldnt be hacking in the firstplace ....and clear them out as revenge )

i go ALL the way

which may sound reckless especially when you film it and have passwords showing as above ...

however is ten times more Solomon than you may assume  - infact as aforementioned the silly man dying with several  18 year olds in his bed if thats to be believed... he cannot have been even smallest bit wise as they dont get " if i could have one wish" (walking hills talkin to self) until 53 at least....

 

....  very unfinished piece on philosophy - includes err below one of my very very few goddesses...